Dear Beloved, Love Daniel ❤️

~ 12 years later ~

Dear beloved,
I haven't stopped thinking about you. Ever since the... car accident. I really can't believe you're gone. I know it's too late for anything now. I apologize about a million times a day thinking that it's all my fault for your passing, thinking that it's gonna change anything. I am sorry. It's a habit of saying those 8 letters now.

"Daddy, can me and Dylan go play outside?" My kids beamed with joy.
"Of course you can. I'll go talk to your dad while you guys play. But stay in the backyard only! I don't want anything happening to you." Corbyn smiles. I could feel his eyes look over at me. Then his hand on my thigh.
"Dani... I know it's the day today. If you don't wanna talk to me today, that's fine. I still to this day regret not slamming the breaks in time. That car just slammed into us and... And I went to check if y/n was okay... and she wasn't.. she wasn't moving..." He chokes up. I start sobbing uncontrollably because of the thought of y/n being gone and having to be reminded of her every single day by our kids, it hurts me physically. My heart physically feels like it breaks a little.
"Hey, now don't you cry Seavey. I'm not gonna watch you be upset all day. I'm not gonna let you commit because I know you're thinking about that. It's been attempted before by you. I'm making sure you're okay." He comforted me by holding my head close to his chest and rubbing my back. He took my notebook away from me. The 6th one I've been writing in for the past 12 years. I never ended my paragraphs or entries, since I had thought to save it for the final one. I calmed down as much as possible and picked up the pen and I continued writing.

From what I've been through these past 12 years, I have decided after the wedding, the kids birthdays, and your birthday, that I would join you. I'll join you in the same way you had left. I can't believe I'm saying this, but... y/n you mean the absolute world to me. Thank you for everything.
Love, Daniel