The END to it all

cause and effect

I stood there looking at my phone in shock. reading the comments of people laughing at me, saying harsh things. I started to get message from people , telling me im stupid, im a hoe, slut, bitch, thot, Then i remember getting those messages of people telling me i should just kill myself. I cried and cried. Jalen kept calling and texting me saying he was sorry and he should have never messed with her saying that he was drugged up and didn't know or remember. maxine kept texting me and asking me was i okay. I just kept reading everybody messages as i laid on the floor drinking. I remember feeling like the room was spinning. Then it stopped. I got up and reached for the gun I had just put back. I loaded it and laid on the floor. crying. I remember feeling so bad. then I got a text from Naomi on facebook messenger.

Naomi Jones:

im sorry this had to happen like this, it must sucks knowing that he would never be yours and that he would do you that dirty to let me fuck him and go throught his phone looking at all of yall private stuff. face it you mean nothing to nobody, nobody loves you, nobody cares about you. you are probably crying your eyes out right now. how much i would love to see that right now. everybody sees you now for the whore that you are. your mother must be disappointed. wonder whats going to happen when youre daddy sees his little girl on the internt playing with herself and having sex . I would hate to be you right now. If i were you I would just Kill myself.

she was right.

I looked at the gun and picked it up. and i pointed it at myself . I heard keys jangling in the door. I Pulled the trigger and shot myself right in the head. I wanted it all to end.

"ASIA" "asia"

I opened my eyes to see this woman in a white coat. "Hi miss. Asia how are you feeling ''I didn't respond. " you are lucky to be alive, one more inch and that bullet could have ended your whole life," she said to me.

"How are you feeling" she asked again.

I looked at her with the blankest face and said.

" I want to end it all"