After I calmed down at the house I was planning on going back over there to apologize to my mom and Ashley. So I got in the car and blasted my music, laid back in the seat driving with one hand. As I was coming up my mama rode I seen Ashley walking with Derion laughing like everything is funny. Is swerved to the side of the road like I was gonna hit them and jumped out like I was the police and Ashley was surprised and jus stood there. I snatched her by arm and threw her in the car and put my finger in Derion's face and said " yeah I got yo ass next time boy" he laughed and kept going. Meanwhile I hop back into the car, my face in rage and I'm red all over, "WHAT THE FUCK ASHLEY YOU SUPPOSED TO BE MY BITCH BU--(gco)" "I ain't nobody BITCH! first of all and second of all I was jus tryna figure out what happened, you wouldn't answer me so I needed someone to pay me some type of fucking attention!" she explained "that's all you are you are a fucking attention whore and I hate that shit" I yelled. "Well since I'm such an attention whore why the fuck you with me then?" she said. I stopped arguing with her for a couple of minutes because I know what I said was wrong ASF and I just ruined something that was happy. We pulled up to the house, she gets out and slams the door and walks right into the house, "what the fuck is your problem?" she stopped in her steps and turned around in a complete 360 "what the hell do you mean what's wrong with me you have some balls to come up to me and ask me that fucking question, I'm sorry that you and D ain't getting along and you already think we fucking for all of 10 minutes.....(gco). My hands clutched into a fist and I had to try to relax until she said the wrong words "what do you want me to say oh yeah that's right....IM FUCKING YOUR COUS--" *slap*. I slapped her so hard to where she fell on the ground, then I looked an I realized who it was, that was the love of my life the mother of my children and I just got her. I came down to the floor where she was crying and whimpering and holding her face, "baby I'm sorry" I said as she snatched away from me and kept rocking back and forth "baby---" "NO....GET AWAY FROM ME, I HATE YOU JAY I HATE THE FUCK OUTTA YOU!" she ran to the room and locked herself inside. I went to the door and hearing her son made me slide down the door and cover my face to try to cover my tears up. Knowing that I messed it all up hurt me to my heart, I tried to call her phone to talk because she wouldn't answer the knocks that I have to the door but she jus kept sending me to voicemail. I begged and pleaded and sent her this text message ' baby I swear and promise on everything that I didn't mean to hit you I was jus very angry and you made that side of me come out to the point I thought that you were D and I wanted to hit him so bad and I take full blame for everything and I'm sorry I want you to be my wife and the mother of my children baby I promise that if you let me in I will make it up to you' and I sent the message. I waited to see if she was gonna open up the door but when I found out she wasn't, I wiped my face and got up to walk away and then I heard the door rambling and she opened it. At the fact that she was still crying made me finally grow some balls and decided to make it up to her. She laid on the bed and while she was crying I spread her legs apart and unbuttoned her pants and slid them off "no no stop don't touch me" she said but I told her "ima make it up to you baby jus like I said" I wet my finger and stuck it inside her, she let out a moan the I started eating her out and she started letting out bigger and louder moans as I got deeper and deeper. Then she pushed me away and got under the covers and said "leave me alone Jay I jus wanna be alone" I kissed her on the forehead and walked out the room and closed the door and prayed for God to fix this all. I soon called my mom and told her and my lil brothers that I'm sorry for everything and me and Ash jus gotta fix something's and I'll see them later. This girl is my world and I don't ever want to lose her EVER!😻💟💕💍
