Its 12:51 and i cant still fathom what happened 4 hours ago...
Im here starring at my glass door trying to anticipate our first meet up after what?? Hmmmm 9 years i would say...
I rehearsed everything in my head..
all the things i want to tell you..
My what i call -" Closure speech "..
But when i saw you everything lit up..
I know you were fine
I know you were happy
And im praying you will remain like that in days to come..
I am genuinely happy for you..
All my self created drama that has been bugging me for weeks..
FADED...
The smile you showed me
I know i can now let you go..
I'll let you go because someone out there can give you the love,attention,and affection that you never found in me...
I'll let you go because someone out there can appreciate what i can give and always been thankful of how least i can offer..
I'll let you go because at the end of the day you will never choose me and i can never make you choose me...
I'll let you go because that is the only thing we can do..
She deserves you.. so stay..
He doesn't deserve me.. yet he stayed..
And that hug...
That warmth you gave me...
I will always crave for that...
It maybe the first for us but we both know it was the last...
B.abe 10-12-2019
