Dear Jonah
It's been 2 months with Channing and I'm so paranoid that he's going to cheat again.
Reassure me please? Please tell me that he won't, that if you were him you would never do such.
Please tell me that he loves me as much as I love him.
Please tell me it'll be okay, that you're here for me.
I haven't spoken to you in a while, so I don't know why I would think you'd be here for me, but I like to think sometimes that you still think about me.
Channing touches me in public, that's how he shows me that he loves me, is that okay? I'm not sure, we fight a lot and I can't seem to say sorry even though it's always my fault, I'm the only insecure one in the relationship I guess...
Channing also sometimes gets angry that I don't do certain things with him; things like touching his crotch or kissing him in front of my friends, is that how a relationship works Jonah? I wouldn't know much about it.
In other words I've learnt some new songs on an actual keyboard that I bought myself! But of course you wouldn't know. How is she by the way? Emily I mean.
How is the relationship going? I hope she's treating you better than I thought I could've ever treated you. Oh dear I've sidetracked from the actual topic. I believe one of the songs that I've learnt is one from one of your favourite bands, it's 'Sweet Child o' Mine' by Guns and Roses. It's really fun to play, I wonder what new songs you've learnt on the guitar. I've always loved the way you played. All I could hear when you played was soul, no not the genre but your actual soul. Your soul seems somewhat lonely but full of love, how does that work? Who hurt you Jonah? Was it Emily, seeing as she was your ex. Fun fact actually; Emily means "rival" in Latin, derived from the name Aemilila.. well.. it was a fun fact for me because it makes SO much sense.
In other words I hope school is treating you well and that everything is good on your side. I have to go. Channing is upset again, I don't know what for... he wants me to give myself to him soon and I thought it was a good idea because I love him so much and he deserves it after how much I've disappointed him, but I am so terrified.
Dear Jonah
I'm scared.
YOU ARE READING
Dear Jonah.
Teen Fiction"Dear Jonah. Here's a book about all of you I never said. All of me I never told you. And all of us that never was. As I lay in my bed at the hospital I send you the letters I wrote to you. Dear Jonah. Here's your book." An old woman on the verge...
