Not real

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Meg's Pov
Everyone had left to go home. Only Bill, Bev and I were still standing here in the middle of the street.,,We need to get them back.",Bill meant, looking at Bev.,,They need some time. They'll come around eventually.",I said, stepping forwards. Was I on Bill's side? Not really. I didn't want to die but I didn't want him to die either.,,What if they don't? What if I-it gets them before we d-defeated him?",Bill inquired, turning to me. I hugged myself.,,We're still in. We can do this together.",Bev spoke up. I furrowed my brows.,,Wait, you wanna do this alone? Just the three of us?",I asked. She couldn't be serious. We barely survived as a group of 9.,,Yes and if we find a way to defeat It, we can tell the others. Maybe then, they'll help.",she explained and I saw Bill nodding. I closed my eyes and sighed. Of course, he had to be on her side.,,I'll bring you home.",Bill suggested, knowing that this would take a while if no one would say anything.,,Yeah, that's a good idea.",Bev inquired as we all walked to our bikes.,,Ok... So, I'll see you later.",I meant, looking at Bill. He and Bev nodded as we got on our bikes.,,See ya.",she said and her and Bill parted ways with me.

The whole ride home, was quiet. I was alone and Bill with Beverly which was why I had taken some time to get to Bill's house. Once I got there, I saw him.,,Bill?",I called to him as he just ran inside after we had arrived. What had gotten into him? I followed him.,,Bill, wait!",I said, sprinting up the stairs. Once, I was in his room, I could catch my breath.,,What is going on?",I asked, panting. He was looking through his closet. For what, I didn't know. Bill hadn't answered me and was still rummaging through his stuff.,,Bill!",I shouted, making him flinch a little. His eyes landed on me. Well, now I had his attention.,,What are you doing?",I inquired, crossing my arms in front of my chest.,,Looking for something.",was all he said before he turned back around. I took a deep breath.,,I thought we agreed on not having secrets. Bill, just tell me what's going on. I wanna help.",I told him, getting a little frustrated.,,You can't help. None of you guys can because you don't know how it feels.",Bill shouted and it took me by surprise. Yes, he and Richie had the argument, but Bill had never shouted at me like that before.,,This is about Georgie, isn't it? Jesus, Bill, we're going to find him. Maybe you not because you'll get yourself killed first!",I replied, raising my voice a little.,,It's my fault that he's gone. He's alone, afraid... a-and I don't k-know what I-it is going to do next.",Bill said, stuttering. I let my arms fall to my sides.,,Bill, we're here for you. Give it some time and we'll find him. But we need to know how to defeat that clown first.",I told him, taking a step forward.,,You don't think that G-georgie's alive, do you?",he asked. That question was so sudden that I froze for a minute or two.,,Get out.",Bill just said.,,Bill, c'mon. I never thought that..",I tried to reason with him, however he shook his head.,,I said get out!",he shouted and I flinched. Without saying another word, I ran downstairs and left the house. Getting on my bike was the next thing I did, before cycling somewhere, I could be alone.

Little time skip
I was on my way to the Quarry. None of my friends would be there. I needed to clear my head. Was I angry at Bill? Yes, I was. Was I hurt? Definitely. Was I sad and crying that he didn't trust me like he trusted the boys or Bev? You bet I did! I wasn't crying, though I had to hold back my tears. This was so stupid! Why was he like this?,,He knows we're right...",I thought, taking a short cut through the forest. The wind was blowing through my hair and made me relax a little. Everything had changed since It got Georgie and to us. I just wished that things were different, normal even. Why couldn't life be easy and stay the same?,,Stop thinking so much.",I mumbled, shaking my head. 

As I was cycling through the forest, I kept looking around. Every noise or shadow I saw, made my mind go crazy.,,I've become so paranoid..",I thought, turning my head to look behind me for another time. However, I did not see a rather small trees trunk which was right in front of me. By the time I had seen it and realized that I should hit the breaks, it was too late. I hit the tree trunk with so much force because I had been racing through the forest. I fell over my bike and hit the ground.,,Shit.",I mumbled, holding my head. Everything was spinning a little because I had hit my head. Something was running down my nose and I raised my head to wipe it away. Of fuck! I was bleeding.,,Well isn't that just great.",I thought, sitting up. When I did that, I saw a hand which was held out for me. My eyes went up and I saw...,,Bill? What are you doing here?",I asked, completely confused.,,I was worried that something might've happened.",he told me, not stuttering once. That made me a little suspicious. I grabbed his hand anyways and was pulled up to my feet.

 I grabbed his hand anyways and was pulled up to my feet

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 ,,I should be the one apologizing. I'm so sorry. I should be on your side because you're one of my best friends and the others should've listened to you.",I rattled down, walking over to my bike and checking if it was still working and thank God, it did!,,It's ok. I am sorry about earlier.",he said. I furrowed my brows.,,Why aren't you stuttering.",I though, looking at him. My inner alarm went off. I just didn't listen.,,No, it's ok. Things like that can happen.",I replied, smiling a little bit.,,I was wasn't finished though.",he meant. What was that supposed to mean?,,You know, you're the worst and weakest out of the group. I mean, come on, really? Never wondered why we hang out with you? You mean nothing to us. You're pathetic.",Bill told me as tears welled up in my eyes. The worst thing, however, was that his eyes turned yellow and he got fangs like a werewolf. My heart was pounding and I got on my bike before Bill could get to me. I cycled as fast as I could, looking for a place to hide. All I could hear were his words and his laughter. And thank God that I spotted a small cave. I jumped off of my bike and ran to it, hiding. My breathing was ragged and I had to stay quiet. I was gulping when I heard steps.,,What's that?",I thought when I had my hands in my pockets. There was something in my left one. Carefully and quietly, I pulled it out. It was a piece of paper folded. I unfolded it and saw a picture of me, sleeping. Or more like a sketch.

(please pretend that this is Meg

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(please pretend that this is Meg.)

I remembered this. There was this one time, when I asked Bill what he had been doing. He didn't tell me and I snatched away his notebook. I saw this picture and asked if I could keep it. Bill was a stuttering, blushing and embarrassed mess. A small smile crept onto my face as tears ran down my face.,,Where are you, Meg?",I heard Bill calling out.,,He would never say thing like that. He is honest, kind and likes me for who I am. It's not real because it's not him.",I told myself, taking a deep breath and coming out of the cave. Bill or more like It was nowhere to be found. I put the picture back in my pocket and ran over to my bike. There was a growl which I heard. I was panting and got on my bike.,,Not real, not real not real!",I repeated as I was on my way back to Bill's. I probably pissed of It by leaving and playing by his rules but I really wanted to live and not die today!

Back at Bill's
I saw Bill's house from a few meters away. What I could see as well, was someone sitting on the front porch. And as soon as this person heard me, he jumped to his feet. It was Bill, I could see him clearer now. I arrived and got off of my bike.,,Meg.",Bill called as if I hadn't seen him already. I let my bike fall to the ground and ran over to him. He hugged me tightly.,,I-i'm so sorry. I s-shouldn't have y-y-yelled.",he said in my shoulder. I nodded a little, tightening my grip on him.,,W-what happened? A-are you alright?",he asked me.,,I am now.",was all I answered. I didn't want to talk about what had happened and Bill knew better than to ask me now. So, we just stood there, hugging each other and were grateful that the other was ok. Well, I was better now and definitely safer....

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