Silence

I can't

" I can't do it anymore!" I shout at Evan through my sobs.
"What baby? what can't you do?" He whispers softly. even the sound of his voice sends butterflies to my tummy, I ignore that feeling. "i can't do THIS, this life, these people." I scream. "hey, don't say that summer, please." Evan pleads before pulling me into a warm embrace. I sob into his chest, I love him, I really do but this is too much, I can't do it anymore.
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I wake up, still in Evans warm embrace except were lying on the bed, Evans arms are wrapped tightly around me, his face buried deep in my hair, I can feel his hot breath on the back of my neck, I feel safe, safer than I've ever felt before. I lift my head slowly off Evans chest so that I don't wake him, I reach out to get my phone, I check the time ~ 3:06 AM. Great, I set my phone down and rest my head back on Evans chest and match my breathing to his.
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This is it, its today, I'm going to end it all today.
"Hey baby" Evan grunts as walks up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. "Why aren't you getting ready for school?" he asks questionably. "oh erm I.... I'm ill, sorry I feel really sick." I reply quickly. "Oh right, I hope Your ok, I'll see you when j get back." and with that he turns and heads to the door but before he shuts the door behind him he shouts "I love you" down the hallway. "I love you too" I whisper to myself under my breath.
Evan's gone, everyone's gone and no one is here. when they find me I want to look good I want to look like I did this for everyone else and not just me, I want to look respectable.
I strip my clothes off and climb into the shower I wait a second until the warm water hits me and it feels so good. after my shower I dry off and dry my hair, make it look nice. I apply my makeup and slip into a pink dress.
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1,2,3,4..... 11, 12, ok so 12 pills, 12 pills and it's done. I fill up a glass of water and set it on my bed side table next to the note I wrote.. ' many people say this is the cowards way out, I do not believe I am a coward, I'm doing this for the good of me and all of you. everybody is better off without me, I do love you, I love you mum, Jenny and Evan, I love you all so much but I can't do this anymore I can't deal with the people at school and when I'm out, I can't deal with the name calling and the abuse I get. I'm sorry, Summer xxx.'
I pick up my phone and scroll down until I reach Evans name, I type a message into my phone, every word I type is killing me, I don't want to leave him. ' I love you Evan, always remember that, I'll see you soon' 5 minutes later I receive a message back 'I love you too baby, hope your ok xxx'
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I reach for the pills and the water, one by one I swallow them, all 12. I lay down and wait, wait for it to end, I start to drift, slowly and it all goes black.
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EVANS P.O.V
Something's not right, why did she send me that text? Something really doesn't feel right. "umm Mr Lanar can I be excused?" "yes, very well, don't be long though" Mr Lanar replied. I jump up out of my seat and run to my bike, I hop on and start to drive.
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5 minutes later I arrive outside the house. I knock on the door, no answer, I knock again, still no answer. "summer" I shout. nobody replies. something's wrong, very wrong. I take a few steps back and then barge at the door, the door swings open and I run upstairs. I open the bedroom door and there she is, my beautiful summer lying on the bed her beautiful brown hair cascading down past her shoulders, her face so pale and sweet. I run over to her and try to wake her up. "shit summer, please wake up baby you can't leave me, not now."
I reach out for the phone on the bedside table and dial 911. in greeted with a friendly operator. " hi umm my girlfriend she umm she's not waking up, she won't wake up!!" I cry. "ok, I'll send an operator right away, can I ask you a few questions." the operator asks. "yes" I reply quickly with out hesitation. "ok, has she taken anything?" the lady asks me. I look around until I spot an empty pill container on the floor. "umm yeah she has I think umm there's a pill container on the floor for 'testeptimy' " I say whilst swallowing the lump that has formed in my throat. "ok, so sleeping pills then, that could be serious."
She replied. and with that I hear the door swing open downstairs and a deep voice shouting "911 medical." "up here, I shout."
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I don't know wether to finish this story or not but erm yeah. :)