As a former f(x) stan, hearing the news concerning Sulli really came as a huge surprise. I sat in silence for five minutes in shock thinking that it couldn't be true. Two SM artists within two years... It couldn't be true.
Now with the fact sinking in, I just want to wish Sulli happiness wherever she's going. I wish she left whatever drove her to this is left behind and that she's enjoying herself. It's a painful, harsh fact but I know she meant no harm through it. May she rest in peace and may we celebrate her life the best we can to show appreciation for her.
I've seen people online pointing out people they would have preferred passing on in place of Sulli and I'm just once again reminded of the toxicity of K-pop stans. It both hurts and appauls me that people would wish this upon others.
At first when Jonghyun passed, I was hoping it was a different Jonghyun and began to name which other ones I would have preferred it being. But then I realised everyone deserves to be alive. How could I possibly wish for another person to take their own life if I don't even have the guts to take my own?
Suicide is terrifying. How terrible of a state must you be in to take the only thing that actually matters? The most important thing in your life? This is your life. Literally nothing is more important than it. It is everything. Everything. How scared of it do you have to be to be willing to give the most important thing in your existence away. In fact, how scared must one be to actually give their existence away? It's terrifying.
I'd like to believe no one in that position would wish it upon someone else. So why would anyone who has no idea of how it feels wish it upon anyone else? It's disgusting. Suicide is not a joke. It's not a game in which we can pick and choose who should die and who shouldn't.
How could you wish suicide upon someone? We've already been shown time and again the effects of it on K-POP idols. Korea has one of the highest suicide rates in the world. How heartless can people be? It's sad that Sulli's gone and it's only natural for everyone to pinpoint who they'd rather have in that place but the fact, as cold and harsh as it is, is that people probably said the same thing to Sulli. They probably said the same thing to Jonghyun and now look where they are?
Why can't we respect and mourn for the fallen idols and learn from where we went wrong? Why can't we learn so no one else has to die and Sulli's passing becomes a lesson and a message for the rest of us. So that her passing is not in vain and it serves as a sacrifice to save others in her spot?
Why can't we do that for her? And not just her. All the K-pop idols and other people that took their own lives, so that their passing isn't in vain?
Why can't we appreciate the people we have amongst us right now before their gone? Parents, siblings, friends, favourite groups and artists, heck even that one classmate you barely speak to? Why can't we appreciate them and give them a reason to not take their life?
Our lives are all we have. The only things we truly own.
If you are suicidal, please, I beg, get some help. It's normal for people to feel unworthy and useless but you mean more to the people around you than you'll ever know. There's so much more to life in store for you. Please don't cut your future short. Please. Please.
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