Who are you really?

5

I woke up soaking wet with sweat and tear stained cheeks. I had a dream about that one horrid

night. The night my innocence was stolen. I never told anyone about it not even Mia. It was 5:30 I

cried for about 5 minutes after I woke up. I finally got up and took a shower and scrunched my

hair. I put some dark skinny jeans on, a grey long sleeve shirt, Osiris's and a tight white hoodie I

put a little eyeliner, eyeshadow and some mascara I grabbed my backpack and saw that my

parents were gone l grabbed a bottle of water and left the building.

I went to my old shitty car and

left to go to school I went to put my eminem cd in but I forgot its in Nathan's car I screamed out in

frustration "Fuck!!" i went to go grab my phone and remembered that Nathan what's going to

send me his music so I turned that on and I relaxed at the sound of his voice. I pulled into the

school parking lot turned off the music. I put my head on the stearing wheel and said to my self

"whats happening to me" I started to cry but then I heard a knock on the window I looked up

and saw Nathan. I reached into the backseat and grabbed my bag. I turned off the car and got out

of the car. I looked at him and said "what" in a cold cracking voice he reached out for me and I put

my arms up in defense. He looked at me and said "did u think I was going to hurt you?" I saw the

hurt in his eyes and said "force of habit what did you want before?" he looked at me and said "you

were upset in the car." I started walking away and said. Don't know what your talking about. " I

left him standing there and I thought to my self he's going to hurt me like everyone else In this

fucked up world. I got to home room right before the bell rang. I had all the sucky classes first. I

had gym, Spanish, and social studies. It was finally lunch and I went to go sit with Mia when the

head cheerleader Leah came up to me and blocked my way. I looked at her and she scowled. I said

"hey lee nice to see you too" she said "listin hear slut. I want you to stay away from my boyfriend

or else. I laughed and said "I'm so friggin scared what are you gonna do bury me in glitter. Any

way I don't want him. She said "yeah right you fake whore just stay away" she started walking

away and I laughed and said"bitch please your so fake Barbie is jealous." She walked away and I

went to sit next to Mia she started laughing. I looked at her and said "dude, what are you on" she

said "the look on Leah's face was friggin priceless" I just shrugged and said "no biggie" I saw

someone from the corner of my eye and I saw Nathan. He smiled and said " Hey what's up

beautiful" I rolled my eyes and I Said "How about to go over there and sit your ass down where

your bitch girlfriend is hmm?" he looked at me puzzled and said "what are you talking about?" I

laughed and said " I'm not going to fall for some player who just wants to use girls as little play

toys okay." I saw hurt in his eyes and he said " Ari look at me" I looked "Whatever her name is I'm

not dating her and I don't play girls." I looked up into is eyes and i could tell that he wasent lying i

said "Okay I believe you" he sighed and said "thank you" He bumped his hand into mine and I felt

Happy. I've never felt like this with another guy. I was so so so scared though because I didn't

want to be used and hurt. And that's what everyone has done to me so far. He nodded over to the

Jocks and he said "I will see you after school right?" I nodded and said "I need to get my cd back"

I smiled and he chuckle and he wales over with the jocks. Mia looked at me bug eyed and jaw

dropped " I laughed at her and said "what?" she just shook her head and said "you are such a

lucky bitch!" I looked over at her and said "I'm not dating him nor i will ever" she rolled her eyes

and ate her pizza we ate in silence until the bell rang. I went over to my locker to get my stuff

when I saw the words "slut" and "whore" It didn't bother me so I opened my locker and grabbed

my stuff when I saw Nathan walk over. He looked at my locker door and I could see the anger in

his eyes and I said "What's your problem" he narrowed his eyes and pointed o my locker door. I

just shrugged and walked into Biology with Nathan behind me when we took our seats he looked

over at me and said "don't act like that shit dosent bother you" I looked at him getting mad and

said "You don't know shit about me so don't act like you do" he looked me in the eyes and said "I

do know you. Your an amazing, sweet, beautiful, funny girl that I feel happy around and I'm really

starting to like you" I grabbed my Bag and said "Like I said you don't know shit about me. I'm

none of those things" I turned around and left the building. I heard a door open and close behind

me and I felt someone grab my arm And my sweatshirt sleave go up and I turned around fast and

covered my arm back up it was too late and I knew that he saw. I had cigarette burns on my arm

from my mom when she was high. I turned away to run when he grabbed me into a hug. I started

crying and punching his chest saying "Fuck you!" I stopped trying to fight it and Layed my head

on his chest sobbing uncontrolably and I felt him whispering "Shhhh I'm here now no one is going

to hurt you" his right hand was rubbing my back while his left hand was on the back of my head. I

cried for about 5 more minutes In his arms but then I pulled back to look at him. His eyes were

worried and I managed a small smile. I said "I'm sorry I just let that happen" He looked at me

and said " don't ever apologize for that. I'm here for you when ever you need me okay?" I just

nodded and he walked me to the car. I got in and he closed the door I saw him go around the car

to the drivers side. He got into the car and I said "I'm starting to really like you too and it's scaring

the shit out of me" he closed the door and looked into my eyes at that moment his bad boy image

went away and it was just sweet Nathan. He looked at me and said "Ari" I looked at him and he

said " I was wrong I don't know anything about your past but I'm sure as hell I won't hurt you Ari

I promise you that."