I'm kind of a thot.
I say kind of because the only way I can get people to like me is with my body but I've never even kissed anyone. Well 2 weeks ago I had never even kissed anyone now its a different story.
I don't wear booty shorts or anything to school, maybe just skinny jeans and crop top.
There was this guy in my English class who liked me and I knew he liked me because it's was obvious. Also he told me. He's not bad looking or anything and one day we just got really close and started 'dating' he didn't ask me out but at the end of that one day he was my new lock screen and he was mine.
For a week we didn't do anything except hug. At the beginning of week 2 we held hands. In the middle of week 2 we started making out.
All my friends knew I was dating him and since they all have boyfriends and I was 9th wheeling everyday I asked Derek if he would hang out with me and my friends on wensday, he said maybe.
During English (the class before munch) he asked if I wanted him to hang out with me during lunch I said yes.
He took me to a place at school where no one goes and raped me. It hurt
It hurt so much but what was I supposed to do. I told him to stop so many times but he wouldent he kept saying that I should just relax and enjoy it because he deserved to have fun. I couldent tell my friend's they would say I'm just over reacting and I just want attention.
I didn't break up with Derek because I didn't want to be a bitch.
BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BE A BITCH.
This was maybe 3 weeks ago I know I should have told someone but it's too late now. Plus it probably was my fault for dressing how I did that day.
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idk man
Poesíapersonally I think I'm kind of a fuxked up kid and no one likes me so I have no friends. I'm going to use this 'book' as kindof a diary to rant about stuff. FAIR WARNING Im probably going to talk about depression and cutting aswell rape so be warne...
