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Willy wonka

There's a time in my life when I regret the most simplistic decisions. Day after day pulled into a worrisome mess based off my own anxiety. I wish that I could have enjoyed every little thing that I have done. I wish that I would have had such confidence to tell you that this is what brought me here, and I don't regret anything. Yet here I am full of regret for I have not only let myself down but broken my heart in doing so. The feeling of wanting to be within your reach consumes me daily.

I panic at the fact that you even acknowledge me in the first place. I cherish every word that comes out of your mouth , even though I'm yet to know you as you are. For though you are beautiful on the outside are you as beautiful on the inside as I hope you are. Jason had left around two this morning and I realized I had a lot of fun with him. He's everything that I'm not and that gives me heartache.

All I could do was sit there and think that he could spot all my flaws. But as the morning reached I have only the feeling of regret. What did I say? How did I act? Did he like hanging out with me last night? It's hard for me to think that I'm doing such an amazing job of keeping myself together.

When I'm falling apart. What could've I done to avoid myself from looking like a complete idiot? I ask of nothing but to be liked the way I am , to not be judged by my appearance but on how I present myself to you.
Jason's a very corny comedian but I still laugh because I think it's cute. Talking is his virtue, as it is not mine.

But I guess some way it worked out. I'm so sick of being depressed and I'm so sick of waiting for my time to come. I really want to make the best of what's happening now. So I'm done , I say this with every fiber in my body and lets just hope that I can keep this one promise to myself.

The feel of leather slips through my fingers as a sigh escapes me. Who knew this small worn out object had given me so much relief. I've come to the realization after last night that life can be so short and I just don't have time to regret anything that many people don't have the chance to make silly mistakes. Or to feel the regret of embarrassment for them or for someone else. And if I wanted something I have to make an effort to get it.

For the first time I felt like I wasn't an outsider , and I should never feel like that. Just because I don't talk as much doesn't mean that I can't hold or have said conversation. So today I'm just gonna have fun.Since it was the weekend I didn't have school so I decided on redecorating my room.

Usually a fresh mind starts with a change of scenery. It took me hours but I finally got it to look the way that I wanted it to. After cleaning so hard I decided just to lay down and watch Lucifer on Netflix. Turning the tv up I laid back on my freshly made bed. A deep breath ran through me. "Feels nice." I whispered snuggling deeper into my bed.

"Looks nice too." A deep voice came from my door way. I jumped up, hitting my foot on the bench. Letting out a hiss I turned my attention to the door. Jason's smiling face stood in my door way. "What in the world are you doing here?"I hissed rubbing my foot.

He chuckled and walked further into my room. "You didn't awnser your phone so I was stoping by to see if you were okay."

I rolled my eye throwing my body back onto the bed. " yea okay, you say that like you actually care. And I didn't even get a call from you."I picked my phone up from beside me. I gave a short chuckle and sighed. " you only called me one time."

"Well conigletto , once is enough." He moved forward and sat on the bed beside me.

" mhm what do you want ?" I turned my head to look over at him and he smiled down at me. " To hang out. Can we do that ?" I proped my elbows up and shrugged my shoulders. " okay I guess." I sighed and got up from my bed to get ready.

"What do you want angel?"

"Chocolate." Gasping I turned to look at him. "Are you gonna take me to get chocolate?"

He chuckled and shrugged his shoulders. " if that's what you want to do I guess so. So hurry up and get dressed Willy wonka." He stood from my bed and walked toward the door.

I pursed my lips and turned to my closet "if I'm willy wonka I guess that make you a umpa loompa. I mean he does have the head for it." A soft nudge to my head made me turn around. A small pillow on the ground behind me and a smiling Jason at the door. " what the hell was that for Worthington?"

"My head is not huge thank you, hurry up and get dressed I'm heading to the car."I glared and turned back to my closet. The door shutting as I start pulling clothes out. What should I wear? I decided on an outfit and made my way out to the car. I got in the car and buckled my seat belt.
" ready to go?"

I smiled and wiggled my eyebrows. "Oh yeaaahh !!"He laughed than pulled out the driveway shaking his head "your wierd." I just smirked and swung my arms up "Bubbles, Bubbles everywhere, But not a drop to drink." Bringing my arms back down I started laughing.

"Angel what in the world..." he shook his head even more making a turn. "It's from Willy wonka and the Chocolate Factory." He turned and looked at me and raised a eyebrow.

"The scene in the soda room?" He shrugged as he kept driving "wow, did you even watch the movie?" I mumbled. The car came to a stop in front of the candy store.

I unbuckled my seat belt and got out the car , Jason following suit. Jason mumble an sarcastic " yay.." I turned around and glared at him. He just smiled and opened the store door. "You first ma lady." Jutting out his arm in a inward motion. " thank you!"

The smell of candy filled the air as I walked in. With a bell signaling that Jason had followed. "Now where's the chocolate?" I walked in between the aisles leaving Jason behind in search for chocolate.
"what kind do you want conigletto?"
Turning around I followed Jason's voice while think what kind I want. " oh maybe peanut butter!" I walked beside him and looked at all the choices. "Peanut butter?" He picked up the orange and white package and handed it to me.

I smiled and nodded my head "yea. You don't like peanut butter and chocolate?" I asked as we walked to the cash register. "I'm allergic to peanuts." He put his hands in his pocket and pulled out his wallet. "Oh...What are you doing?" I furrowed my eyebrows and turned my head towards his hand. "Getting you chocolate." He chuckled and took out a five dollar bill.

" No your not, put that away!" I pushed his hand back toward his pocket. He just chuckled and handed the money to the cashier. I groaned and turned toward the cashier " can you hand him that back please?" I smiled at her and she chuckled handing him the money back. I pulled my wallet at my purse and pulled out the money.

Air rushed around me as the ground descended from underneath me. I let out a scream and gasped grabbing onto anything for support. My feet hit the ground again and my face was toward the door. " Here you go ma'm."
I groaned and turned toward the register. " you really didn't have to do that. The whole picking me up thing" I crossed my arms and walked back over to where he was.

"Yes I did." He smiled and put his arm over my shoulder. "You guys make a cute couple." The lady at the cash register smiled. I laughed " He is definitely not my b-."

"Thank you. We should get going , yeah?"

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