Nothing's going right. I always ruin it. I'm no good for him.
I always try to do my best to save our relationship but I'm reckless and irresponsible. I get lost sometimes. I am not the relationship material. I'm a free bird. I like to do things my way. But being in a relationship, being committed to someone. They have the rights to give their opinion and if I don't follow them then we'll have fights but if I follow them my wishes will crush. So what do I choose? I choose us cause I love him so much that I can't let him go. Not now, not anytime. Cause it's not the goodbyes that hurt, it's the flashbacks that follow.
I still get butterflies when he touches me
I still get the knotted feeling in my stomach
I still get weak in love when he's next to meEverything still feels like how it felt for the first time
When he spoke to me and whispered in my ear
When he calmed me down and kissed my forehead
When he made love to me and moaned my name
When he hugged me and made me feel safe in his embrace
When I slept on his arm and it got numb yet he didn't move cause for some reason my sleep was more important to him
When everything was perfectly fine
When I wasn't a mess
When I didn't make mistakes
When he didn't get upset or angry
When he felt lovedNow he thinks I hate him
Now he feels worthless
Now I understand the importance of his presence
Now I know what is it all worth
Now I regret my impoliteness
Now I feel abandoned
Now I ask myself one questionDid he make the right choice?
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PoetryNot a day goes by when I don't think about him.... This is a short piece of writing written for the contest held by Ananya Birla #NotADayGoesBy