um...hey! I'm back, and i know anyone who follows me, is a friend, or just reads my stuff here on Wattpad, deserves an explanation on why i have been gone for so long. Especially when i said I'd be gone only two weeks.
The main reason i haven't been active on Wattpad as much as I've wanted is because i am now a freshman in high school. I'm constantly swamped with homework, and/or classwork that i wasn't able to finish and unfortunately for me, i am a master procrastinator, a slow learner, and an even slower note-taker. (Mainly because i write in a super messy way that makes it hard for me to review my own notes, so i have to take it slow). High school is where teens start exploring what they like, career-wise and personality-wise so i have been super focused on getting good grades. My education will always be my first priority, and i hope whomever reads this can understand that.
The second reason i haven't been on Wattpad is that sometimes social media is a toxic place. I will not be going into specifics as to why i say this. Anyway, as a teenager, puberty has unfortunately become my best friend. So hormones and being an overall emotional mess is just my go-to now. I'd like to think i've got a pretty good handle on my emotions, but even if i try my hardest not to, i have let the stress of disappointing anyone who reads my "stories" that they aren't good enough or that i wont be on time or the constant berating myself of not contacting my friends because of the constant thoughts ' why would they talk to someone who's barely there anyway? ' get in my head because i am an emotional mess that just wants to make everyone around happy, and just okay.
Third, I am still a child. Simple as that, and i cannot make everyone i see happy no matter how much i want too. I need to think of my own mental and emotional health before trying to fix everyone else's. I have heard so much drama, stuff about my friend's terrible home lives, or even when I had people asking me for help during class when i was confused myself but i still helped them first. I have a tendancy of buring my emotions and feelings about something in favor of helping someone else, as well as concealing any time of pain that I might be feeling. (Be it mental, emotional or physical, i hid it all away).
In all, life isn't fair. There could be someone out in the world having the same exact problems and being able to stay in top of it all. I am very aware of that, and i know that no matter what i say, it will not excuse the fact that I have left so many people that I have made friends with due to just being on Wattpad as a reader, and as an aspiring writer. To those who either know me IRL, or that I have met via this platform, i am especially sorry because who knows what you could have been going through while i was gone as well.
I just hope that you can forgive me, and if not, then I'm just glad that you were my friends to begin with. You know who you all are, and hopefully we can reconcile if you do choose not to be friends any longer.
To those who read this message, thank you for at least trying to understand. It means the world to me.
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