far too far, better in.

for what it's worth, im guilty

Over thinking it and this I know

I can be free and just let it go

I can be myself be imperfect

But I'm still guilty and it's not worth it

It's not worth the hate. It's not worth the guilt

It's not worth blaming it on myself

It's not worth the feelings and I was so close

So close to being without the hurt

Now I feel so Impure

And I feel so Insecure

And  now I'm So filthy, So guilty, So putrid

And I am So helpless

So tell me When will it end?

I know I'm Just human, Imperfect, And stupid

Please tell me Will it ever end?

When will the pain wash off again?

I know words can't affect me and I won't let them

But they will still hurt me even if I pretend

They say not to listen, that they're just jealous

They say not to believe them because they're just stupid

Yes. I do agree their words come from stupidity

But what I fear inside is that they could be right

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Do you know how confusing it is

to have a little kid call you stupid

Then for an adult to come along

and look at you as a fuckin' genius?

I get praised then beat down

then the same kid helps me off the ground

 How am I supposed to react to that?

The adult treating me good and a kid treating me bad

And the worst part is I already know

I'm smart enough to realize that's why I'm respected by the adult the most

Are you scared of me? Cause I don’t know

Or is it just you stupidity starting to show?

Because that’s a stupid reason to treat others the way you did

Your gonna start a holocaust so great fuckin' job kid

But the difference is Hitler went insane

All you did was loose your brain

It hurts to know all that knowledge was wasted

Because you were inconsiderate and just plain stupid

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