X1 incorrect
Kinda gay
Jk
This book is really mf gay
No smut tho
I'm underage
Short chapters
Random updates
Probably never ending lol
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I'm so sorry for adding this here, but I need to say something.
It was 11pm at night, I was planning on going to sleep, when I received a notification on my class grp chat.
It was a notification that I had been removed as admin in that grp. This girl named Anna( not her real name) had removed me n we've had beef before so I didn't think much of it, I just told my other friend Jen(also not her real name) to add me as admin again. N she did. Jen was the greatest person alive, she was honest and I could trust her.
Red=Anna Green=Jen
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(These aren't exactly in order)
Then I went to pm Jen.
I was crying at that point. I told her everything. In the past, that incident happened before, I lost everyone and everything, I had no friends. That's y, now that I've made new friends I was so scared to lose them again. I kept crying and sobbing in my bathroom, and I told Jen everything.
I begged her to help me ask what I did wrong so I could fix it, but she didn't ask and kept saying 'idk'.
I broke down and told her 'I should just change everything, my whole existence is a flop. I should just die, so there would be a spot for another Jen to take over me, y'all don't need me anyway.'
And as I said that, I was added into another group chat.
It was all a prank...
I was glad that it was a prank, but...
The fact that I trusted Jen and told her everything. I told her I was crying and having a meltdown but she didn't do anything. She didn't tell me it was a prank and try and calm me down, she just kept playing along and making me feel like a fool, laughing at me. It wasn't until I threatened to kill myself then she told the others and they decided to stop...
And they thought it was funny?
They said 'we didn't expect that reaction from you'
Y'all should know, you can't expect a reaction from anyone. You don't know what that person is going through and you don't know how they're feeling at that moment.
I was so mad, but my trust for them had plummeted. I could no longer treat them as my close friends. I had to treat them as if I'm balancing on thin ice, I had to watch every move I make so I wouldn't loose them, even though I didn't need to be careful. I have completely lost all my trust for anyone in this earth.
None of them know about my anxiety and trust issues, that just shows how much they don't care.
