Is it normal that you fight yourself all the time?
That the positive you and the negative you are trying to kill eachother?
I know that I shouldn't be jealous all the time.
And I know I shouldn't be angry at everyone and everything for not giving me attention I used to get from them or want from them without even talking to them.
It's all wrong that I think like this and that my head explodes and that nothing stops.
And that I think about getting deaf, dying and that I have to change my shoes because they "doesn't fit" with this outfit.
I'm getting so tired of myself.
Let it stop.
Let someone or something stop the mess in my head.
I want to be finally normal.
No one even thinks about talking to me. Because what if they're getting involved in my mess... Ye. Then they have a problem. Why would you want a problem. Let her die with her pooping problems.
They're rather alone in a freaking tent on the highest mountain on earth than talking to me or taking me somewhere outside.
I'm drowning... And I honestly don't know how to keep my head above the waves. Although that's what my only wish is: being able to safe myself.
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