❤️adopted by the shaytards❤️

pt. 12

it was magical, something i have never felt before.
it felt like my heart sank, but not because of sadness.
i had my head on his shoulder, his arm around me.
until the headlights came up to the driveway, we stayed like that, talking about anything.
when the car stopped, he got up, and gave me a hug.
"i love you, see you in school tommorrow."
"love you too"
i had butterflies for the rest of the night, and i dont mind that i admitted it.
avia came into my small space i called a room and asked to talk.
she asked me how to get a boyfriend, and i simply said, i never saw it coming. jake had avoided me the whole week and then he just came up to me and asked me out and told me why he had been ignoring me.
and i also added, "your too young to have a boyfriend, avia. even if your friends have 'boyfriends', your way to young. mom and dad wouldnt approve."
"but im mature enough! i mean, why cant i make my own decisions?"
"you are mature, but not mature enough to have a boyfriend. at your age, nobody should like anybody and nobody should be going out with nobody."
"well.. i guess your right.. i mean, they dont even kiss or anything, they hug and stuff. they dont hang out after school either, so i guess you ARE right."
why did she bring up kissing? did she watch me and jake?
"avia, i have to ask you a question, and you have to answer honestly."
"okay, what is it?"
"were you watching me and jake outside? before he left?"
"no..." she said trailing off.
"okay. i did. but emmi wanted to. she said we could learn. and you guys are so cute together!"
well, this is embarassing.
"avia.. eavesdropping is wrong. even if your curious."
"sorry nicole..."
"its ok. but please dont tell anyone you saw. and dont eavesdrop again."
"okay. goodnight."
she gets up to give me a hug. i stand too. we hug and i say "goodnight".
i am about to fall asleep when colette comes into my room right before i turn off the light.
"oh, im sorry, sleep tight, see you in the morning. love you"
"love you too" she exits and i turn off the light.
i cant stop thinking about jake. he is so dreamy...
what am i saying? im only in the 7th grade. i shouldnt even have a boyfriend.
but i did, and i told avia advice that i didnt even use. jake and i are too young.
but i mean jake and i.. we cant be apart. it doesnt feel right.
i fall into a light sleep about 2 minutes later.