(Zoe's POV)
My Twitter was blowing up with photos of me at Playlist, mostly ones of 'the way I look at Alfie'. I keep telling myself over and over that nothing is there. I have no feelings for Alfie I am sure. But ever since Alfie kept shutting me out, I have really missed him and I wanted to talk like we used to, when nothing was awkward.
I clung onto Louise after the show and dragged her to my room. I began to sob, and tears were streaming down my face.
"What's wrong Chummy?" Louise asked me with a sense of worry in her voice, "You have been very distant since we got here?."
I continued to sob and Louise hugged me. Being in her arms gave me a sense of belonging. Louise can always make me feel thousands better just with a hug. I wiped my face with a cold, damp cloth and then spoke up.
"Life's awful at the moment Chummy. I'm just sick of feeling so awkward here, since everyone has made this 'Zalfie' trend worldwide. Alfie won't talk to me. All I get is cold glances and glares coming my way when this isn't my fault at all. We are both young adults, can't we just understand that this is a bit of fun and nothing more?" I felt a sense of relief getting this off my chest, but I know I'm still bottling things up.
"Are you sure that's it? A bit of fun? Are you sure you don't want something more?" Louise's questions were completely serious. I had never really thought about it this way.
"Of course I am sure!" These words spill of my tongue, without really thinking. "Alfie has a girlfriend, I just broke up with my boyfriend, there is nothing there and nothing CAN or WILL ever happen. I've seen Alfie with his girlfriend, whatever her name is, I don't really care. They're made for each other and they look like they will be together for a long while. I've seen how he looks at her, so affectionately, nothing like the way he looks at me, that everyone keeps raving about."
Louise's calm voice stops me in the middle of my rant. "I think you need to talk to Alfie about this, just to make sure he knows that you don't feel anything so it isn't awkward around you two. I think it's for the best"
"I can't. He won't listen and I just don't feel like I can talk to him about this sort of thing, it will be too awkward.."
Once I said this, it suddenly hit me. I'd been lying to myself all this time, and I've also just lied straight to Louise's face. I love Alfie, and I can tell everything is just going to get one hundred times more complicated.
*AUTHOR'S NOTE*
Sorry I haven't added another chapter in forever, but I'm going to try and get this story up and running! :)
