My madness

My life so far

(The song is a song I love but this is a cover the one I like is from escape the fate so hope u like the song)

So far I'm still the same still depressed, still a cutter, but I'm changing for the worse now I'm starting to looks emotions in starting to never smile, it hurts to smile now....I can't really understand why tho, but now even when I'm with friends I show no emotions hardly, my friends have noticed it and they even asked if every things ok cuz latly when I'm with them I don't really talk much when I'm with them I am always listening to music and staying at a distance from them...
Idk why but it's been like this latly...

I think my moms slowly noticing to CUZ every time I look at her she smiles, she never does that in less she can tell there's something front with me... I got in to a fight with my friend not to long ago she wanted to stop talking to me becuz she has depression to...but they way she was talking to me made me feel worthless and like no one cared cuz she is my best friend and I only have two friends but the other one I don't get to see as much as I get to see her. So I fought with her and in the end she said she would not leave...I was happy but still depressed... The other day I was sitting in my room and was showing no emotion doing barly anything....and now today my grandpa died....I may have not got to see him a lot but I will still miss him a lot.