Random Thoughts

But guess what,

I want someone to remind me of my favorite song.
I want someone to hold my hand and be proud that I'm their's.
I want someone who will take me to the park and spin on the merry go round with me.
I want someone to sit in silence with while drinking tea and eating donuts.
I want someone that makes me blush while making me extremely happy every time I see them.
I want someone to give me hoodies they know they'll never get back.
I want someone to hold me when I'm sad.
I want someone to laugh with me while I'm happy.
I want someone to take cute lil selfies with.
I want someone to make me feel, to make me feel like I've never felt before.
I want someone to make my heart race when they enter the room.
But guess what,
saying those things isn't going to get me anywhere.
First I've got to meet them.
Say the first hello.
Ask for their Snapchat.
Start talking,
FaceTiming even.
Then, here's the part you'll do without noticing, you catch feels.
You catch feels for someone who might just think of you as just a friend.
But guess what,
if you shoot your shot, just once, the outcome could last a lifetime.
Let's say it doesn't last a lifetime, but a few months.
Now you have experience.
Now you won't screw up the next relationship,
and if you do, oh well, there's plenty of fish in the sea.
"But I loved them"
Blah blah blah they didn't feel the same, and that's ok.
Now, go drink some water, listen to some chill music (Cavetown radio on Spotify is nice, it's 99% ukulele music), and lay in a lil pit of your own sorrow for a little bit.
Cry.
Scream.
Sob.
Yell.
Punch things (preferably a pillow, not the wall please).
Throw your blankets around.
Hit the couch with a pillow over and over.
Cut or dye your hair (be careful please).
Eat a lot.
But whatever you do, don't hold onto this sorrow for too long.
Give it a month, hun.
And after your lil rampage, drink another glass of water, you don't want to run out of tears, do you? (Actually, if someone's crying, say a child, give them a glass of water. They can't cry and drink at the same time, and the drink will override the tears.)
Now go be a fighter and get that man/woman/human.