Whenever It Rains

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It felt like hours since the last time I moved my body. My back felt stiff, right leg went to sleep and my brain is still filled up with lots of thoughts. I stared at my white popcorn ceiling, heaved a deep sigh and hugged my comforter tighter. I feel sad. I feel lonely. Again, I heaved a deep sigh.

"Must be the weather." I muttered under my breathe, talking to myself.

It has been raining almost the whole day. I pushed my body to sit up straight, now staring at the only light I opened when the sun set earlier at 6:30pm. Looking at my walk in closet, I pursed my lips and think. "Is it still raining? I kinda wants some chocolate ice cream.." I shivered at the thought but switch my gaze to my bedroom window.

I smiled contentedly and touched the glass. My hand left a print. There are no stars visible, not even Mr. Moon but i still felt safe and warm despite the coldness of my surroundings.
My mood slightly changed and felt a little better.

I like ice cream on a rainy day. It warms my cold soul too. Like negative + negative equals negative but at least I gain more. Right? I rolled my eyes. My analogy sucks. This is why I always work. Day offs and being alone makes my brain buffers a lot. Makes me feel as if life's draining all the energy I have.

I pushed my body up to stand on my bed, straighten my white oversized shirt, pulled up my white, knee-high socks and then look at my side table.

It's already 9pm. I sighed. "So much for being productive, Dara." I muttered and went down on my bed, got a little out of balanced but was able to pull myself together quickly.
I giggled at my clumsiness.

I planned to run some errands this morning maybe a little spa day for today since I'm off, but when it started raining earlier, my bed was too clingy that I can't leave it behind. Yup my bed's fault.

It has been a long time since I had a day off without any activities at all. Since he left for enlistment I occupied myself with lots of TV guestings, MC jobs, comercial, vlogs, travel and lessons.

I remember the promise I made almost 2 years ago and smirked. I couldn't have done all this without you. I sighed. I'm producing too much carbon dioxide by sighing a lot. Geez, what's wrong with me?

Annoyed at my lonely phase, I went to my walk-in closet, grab a random sweater, sweat pants and my peaceminusone black cap. Didn't even bother looking at myself in the mirror, I took my phone and a couple cash from my purse.

I'm living alone and didn't ask for my manager or driver. I just took my yellow umbrella and started walking towards the street.

I made it to the grocery store in 25 minutes without me even remembering how I got there. I guess it was just the familiarity. I shook my head while reading the ingredients of every item I touch. I don't even know why am I reading what I'm reading. I'm so off today wtf.

"And he's here.. All Korean press gathered in front of YG Entertainment to welcome our G-Dragon..." I heard the reporter saying as I look up to where the voice it came from. TV was placed or hooked on the wall up high in the corner of the store.

And there he is.. Our G-dragon.. The one and only Ji yong I know. My smile grew wider when I remembered his Motte concert interviews. Fans got crazy, YG boss was furious, I got scared knowing there are haters that are ready to pound and finish my career in a blink of an eye.
But I guess it was all worth it. Sorry special to him and the producers and director were firmed about it, too.

Ji's reaction was priceless. We spent the whole night together after that concert, too. It was when our promise was made, too.

I shook my head while smiling. He must've been busy until now. He just came back today but already has gazillion things to do. I just hope he's enjoying every second of it although I bet he's already tired, too.