TW: mentions of cutting and suicide
I'm numb some nights well every night. All my romantic relationships are fake and some friend ones. The only person that can temp when I'm sad is kim but we barely see each other. They hate me everyone at school they all hate me and I like to keep it that way. I want people to see me as a bad person. I cut in the bad times because I have no coping mechanism for anything. I was always too scared to write a suicide note but not now not ever anymore because I know that all the smiles are fake and the laughter, I do it to make them happy. I'm extremely sad at times and besides that just numb I don't feel many emotions anymore. I used to be happy, happy little girl, now I'm just a sad little boy. They don't like me that's all I need to know for now. I won't go I can't give up and even if I do they won't miss me they would just say they would.
