broken silence

chapter 1

                    The wind blew harshly outside my window. this wasn't the way things were supposed to happen. Not to her anyway. He had said she would be okay and that she wouldn't get hurt. I took off my muddy shoes, and stripped off my wet blood stained clothes. I couldn't stop crying as I put on my pajamas. What if the cops find out? What if I'm next? What do I do when I see him at school tomorrow? I slowly crept out of my room and locked myself in the bathroom. I let myself break there and curled up in the corner and cried. –Bang, bang, bang- "Sam get out of the bathroom I have to pee."I must have fallen asleep in the bathroom last night

                      –bang, bang, bang-"Billy shut up ok, I'm almost done" I screamed at my little brother. I looked at myself in the mirror and noticed I couldn't go out there with my hair standing on end and my eyes all puffy from crying. I splashed some water on my face and brushed my hair, ok so that's taken care of. Remembering my clothes on my bedroom floor I opened the bathroom door, pushed pass my little brother and ran to my room, I didn't know what to do with the clothes so I hid them under a board that opened in my floor, no one knew about it but me so I would have time to figure out what to do with it. I got dressed for school and went downstairs. "Good morning honey," my mom said as I walked in. "Sam are you alright you don't look so good" she asked with a concerned look on her face. "Yes mom I'm fine, but I'm not very hungry so I'm just going to go to school" I replied. "Ok, bye honey I love you." "You to mom"

                 I walked to my car and drove to school. What if he's waiting from me? what if everyone already knows? I parked my car in the parking lot and was just about to go in the school when someone knocked on my window. Startled I looked over, it was him. He didn't look like he was capable of doing the things he did with his blue eyes he almost looked compassionate, but I knew how cold and heartless those eyes could be. I got out of my car and looked at him. When I got out he hugged me and when I flinched he looked at me and said "Sam, I'm sorry about what happened last night, things just got out of control, you know me I'm not like that. It will never happen again, we just need to get past this and we will be fine." I once would have believed that and I almost did. With tears starting to come to my eyes I choked out "you killed her, how can you just stand there and talk to me like it was no big deal? I can't do this and I can't see you anymore," I started to walk away but he grabbed my arm and pushed me hard against my car. His eyes had gone the way they had last night. "Now you listen to me Sam I love you and I can't live without you and I won't let some stupid girl ruin our future," he said harshly. The tears had started to run down my face. "Parker you're hurting me, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I said in between sobs. His grip on my arms loosened and he hugged me while he whispered in my ear, "baby so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, why do you always make me hurt you? I promise everything will be fine, we just have to get past all of this and everything will be fine." He kissed me then and I kissed him back, what else I could do, I knew I couldn't get away from him and I knew that I never would.

                 The bell rang and he walked me to class. As we got to the door he kissed me on the cheek then left to go to his own class. "Hey sam, so how was last night, did you have a good time with parker?" my best friend lacy said giving me that I know you got lucky again last night and your spilling to me later look. "Yeah I had a great time." I replied with a smile. Class started so at least I had time to think about what to tell her later. I looked across the room at Chris, the guy I dated freshman year, which was a bad idea because he had heard what lacy said and was looking at me with a hurt expression on his face. I quickly looked away. When class was over parker was waiting outside the door for me like always. I smiled at him and he put his arm around me and started walking me and lacy to our lockers. I knew I shouldn't but I looked back and saw Chris looking at me again. Soon it was lunch time. Parker and I usually go out back of the school for what lacy likes to call a quickie, but I told him I wanted to talk to lacy because she wanted to know what we did last night. "Ok, I'll leave you to alone, just make it good ok." I nodded and kissed him then walked over to lacy. It was only when I got over to the tree she was under that I noticed Chris was with her.