broken silence

chapter 2

               She looked up at me and said, "Hey Sam, aren't you supposed to be with parker right now?" I looked at Chris and then back to her. "Yeah, but I thought I would tell you about last night, before you died or something" I replied trying to smile. Chris looked at me worried "should I go?" "No, its ok you can't stay," I said to quickly. The truth is that I wanted him to stay by me, he made me feel safe.

                Lacy looked a little disappointed, she knew I wouldn't say anything about last night with Chris around. I wondered if anyone knew if she was gone yet, or even where she was, they would probably think she killed herself, but I doubt that. "Sam are you ok" I looked up and saw them looking at me with concern. "Yeah I'm fine, everything is great." Lacy began telling me about a new show that she started watching. Chris still looked at me like he knew I was lying. like he knew I wasn't ok. I wanted to tell them what happened. I wanted them to tell me it was all going to be ok. mostly I wanted to believe it would be.

           "Sam, are you listening to me?" Lacy snapped her fingers in front of my face. "sorry, yes im listening now" I laughed. satisfied she continued, " I was hoping we could hangout this weekend while Parker is at work " at the mention of his name my hair stood up on my arms. "I think so yeah I just have to call him on his breaks he gets bored." Chris rolled his eyes then and finally said sourly, "of course he does." Lacy punched him in the arm lightly. "you're just jealous" she laughed. He put his hand on her head messing up her hair. The bell rang and we all got up to walk to our next class.

          When school was over I was so relieved  when I remembered that Parker had to work so he wouldn't be outside waiting for me. I walked to my car and turned the key, but it wouldn't start. That's when I saw Chris walking to his car, I had to stay after school to talk to my teacher so everyone else I knew was already gone so I got out of my car and walked over to Chris. "hey, Sam is everything alright?" he asked. "Um actually my car isn't starting and I was wondering if you could bring me home?" I asked. He smiled and said alright. When we got into the car he asked me "so did you have fun with parker last night? you never actually said," I looked down; Chris was the only person who I couldn't lie to so I said "no, it was actually the worst night of my life." He looked over at me 'so what did you do this time, trip, run into the door, or did you look at some guy a little too long?' he spat out angrily. "Chris please don't do this not again, I can't." I whispered.

                   Chris wasn't the only one who suspected how parker treated me, but he was the only one who didn't think it was my fault. He took my hand "I'm sorry Sam; I just don't like it when he hurts you, and don't tell me he doesn't because I know he does." I started to cry again and Chris pulled the car over then put his arm around me and held me while rubbing my back telling me everything was going to be ok. When I stopped crying I wiped my eyes and looked at him. He moved his head closer to mine then kissed me. With a need I didn't know I had I kissed him back while putting my arms around his neck. When he knew I wanted him to kiss me he slipped his hand under my shirt and unhooked my bra. Everything had melted away, everything in my life was nonexistent it was just this moment in time without even thinking I took off his shirt and then mine. He started kissing my neck when he whispered between breaths "I love you Sam." I knew that he did, id always known that  just like I knew he would never hurt me. I didn't say anything just started unzipping his pants. "Are you sure?" He asked and I nodded, truth was that I wasn't really sure about anything but I knew that I couldn't stop even if it was just for this moment I needed him to love me. he still looked a little uncertain, so I took off the rest of my clothes off then said. "Chris I need you".