The Day She Gave Up

Chapter 5: Reason

Xyle's POV

I was hurt and that's the real reason why I gave up in loving Zirk but I have a deeper reason, and that reason  involves my father's death. My father died when I was still inside my mother's womb. As I grew up, I asked mom about my father and she told me thay he died due to an accident, after receiving that answer from my mother I stopped asking because I believed her and I was already contented. I thought I knew enough, not until my Uncle Zack heard the news that I love Zirk. He told me that the father of the man I loved killed my dad, at first I did not believe him but when he took me to the police station, ( which is where he works since he's a policeman ) and gave me the records, I cried because it's too much for me to handle.

When I felt that I'm already okay, I asked my uncle if he knew the reason, but his answer shocked me, because the reason of Zirk's father is unbelievable. You know why, because Uncle Zack told me the Zirk's father was madly in love with my mother and he was just forced to marry Zirk's mother, because, in their time the family of Zirk's mother was very rich while the family of his father were just their workers.

My mother, Zienah Michelle Sevillano was the prettiest, kindest and smartest girl in their town and that's the reason why almost all of the males in their place, including my father, Dale Joshua Vergara and Zirk's father, John Mathew Basquez fell in love with her.

Both of them courted my mom but John suddenly vanished giving my father a chance to win my mother's heart, and after a long time of waiting he did won the heart of my mom. Everyone was happy when they were married except John who vanished because his father was dying that time and the only way for him to help, is to marry Zirk's mom, Ella Lizelle Ruiz, who was crazily in love with John. John was slowly moving moving on with Ella who was pregnant with Zirk, not until he knew that my mom was pregnant with me and he could not accept the fact that he was not the one who married her. That's why he planned to kill my father and after that he would leave Ella and ask my mom to be with him instead but everything turned upside down because instead of having my mom as her wife, he was despised by my mother for killing her one and only love.

At iyan ang rason kung bakit ko talaga sinukuan si Zirk pero kung tatanungin ako, mahal ko pa rin siya at kahit na sinaktan niya ko noon siya pa rin ang laman ng puso ko ngunit wala na akong magagawa kung hindi ang panundigan ang aking desisyon pero kung mabibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na mahalin siya ulit ng malaya, yung tipong hindi tututol yung nga kamag-anak ko, gagawin ko ang lahat para lang magkaroon ng ganoong buhay kasama siya.

Yung buhay na masaya lang, yung buhay na walang iniisip na problema, yung buhay na hindi na namin kailangang alalahanin ang masakit na nakaraan ng aming mga magulang , yun yung buhay na gusto ko pero paano ko nga naman makakamit ang buhay na iyon kung hindi rin naman ako ang kaniyang gusto.

How can I achieve something that is very far and hard to reach. How can I love someone who doesn't like me at all. How can I have someone whose family is despised by mine and how can I love him if I already gave up , but I promise myself that I am only giving up temporarily for my love for him will last permanently. I still don't have the answer to my own questions but one thing's for sure, if you really love someone, you would do everything in your power to make it possible for you to have his/her heart, you may experience pain but at the end of the day, all of that pain will go away.