Her

Chapter One

A/N
Just before you start reading, I want you to know that I am cis. I really want to write this story, and have done research on the matter to properly portray this as best I can. However, I can only do so much alone. I would love feedback from any readers who are trans on how to write Birdette and her transition stronger, and especially to point out anything I did that is inaccurate to people in the trans community. I understand that, as a cis person, there will be things I will not be able to understand, and will misrepresent, so I'm reaching out to the community to help me on this one.
Transphobia in comments will not be tollerated.
Also, here's a list of potential triggers in the story.  I dont want to upset anybody reading this story because I didn't list them.  This story will include deadnaming, incorrect pronoun usage, and general transphobia.  Stay safe.
Much love, Starry ~☆

"Hey honey!  Happy one year!"  Yoshi smiled and wrapped an arm around Birdette.  She blushed and hugged him back. She tried to smile at him, but it was half hearted.  She loved him, she really did, and she wanted him to love her too. But could he really love her for her?  She had known she was a girl since around halfway through their relationship, and she didn't know how to tell him.  She knew he was attracted to women, but she didn't know his opinion on... people like her.

He took out a small box, and held it out to her.  "I got you something, Birdy," he murmured bashfully.

She took the box from his hands and carefully unwrapped it, the crinkly pink paper only ripping wear the tape took it off with it.  She lifted the lid off and peered inside. The gift was a large pink bow.

"It's a bowtie," Yoshi giggled shyly, "I think you'll look handsome in it."

"A bow tie.  Like you wear on your neck?" She asked.

"Yes," he answered excitedly, "Everyone will see you and say, 'Wow, Birdo looks so cute in that bow tie' and we will go from cutest couple to an even cuter cutest couple!"

Birdette internally winced at the word Birdo.  Yoshi didn't know it bothered her. She never told him, so how could he?  She wanted to tell him. She opened her mouth to say something, but hesitated.  Instead she said, "We will," in a voice dripping with faux happiness. She wanted to wear the bow on her head and to feel like a girl.  An anxious feeling began to swell inside her, telling her she'd never get to be a girl. She chose to ignore it, despite the difficulty to do so.

Yoshi looked at her softly.  "I don't mean to say that you aren't already cute and handsome."

Birdette looked up at him surprised.  "I know."

He looked from her down to the bow, and then up at her again.  Very quickly he added, "If you don't like it-"

"I like it."

He looked at her with that same soft look, mildly worried.  She made eye contact with him, hoping that the anxiety she had been ignoring was not as evident in her eyes as the concern in his.  A pause grew as they looked at each other. Finally, Yoshi broke the silence. "Something's wrong.

Birdette half laughed, half sighed.  "It's nothing."

"Okay," Yoshi replied softly, "What's nothing?"

"What do you mean?" Birdette asked, knowing exactly what he meant.

"If nothing's bothering you, tell me what nothing is, so I can make it better," he explained again, with a cheeky smile that seemed to say 'I want to help you.'

"I don't really want to…" Birdette trailed off.

Yoshi looked even more worried than before.  Usually, she told him what was wrong after that.  "Birdo," he muttered quietly.