i think i can almost unlock the deadbolt.
for a long time i couldn't reach it-
i was growing up in a haze of naivety and whirlwind emotions i mistook for love,
and i simply couldn't reach it.
i am now glad that i couldn't.
then i grew taller, and our souls rediscovered one another.
i wanted to open the lock so badly,
i scratched at it until my fingers bled.
you encouraged and comforted me from the other side of the door,
but you did not linger.
i do not resent you for this-
your soul was always intended to wander.
then i stopped trying for a long time.
i sat slumped with my back to the door,
my head hung in defeat.
a few knocked at the door, but i could not bring myself to answer.
what was the point?
until, even without your knock,
i felt your warm aura beneath the door,
and i felt clear, comforting sunshine stroke my cheek.
i know it is not much, but i am standing again.
and i want you to know that
i think i can almost unlock the deadbolt.
i want you to know that for you,
i am going to open this door.
To my beloved readers:
I have unfortunately been severely neglecting this collection, and for that I am so sorry. I am working towards my undergraduate degree in university as well as working full time and have been unreasonably busy for the last few months. But writing is my passion and it is what makes me happy, so I am forcing myself to make time for it, and I will be updating much more regularly from here on out. Thank you for your patience, I promise my 3am thoughts are no where near being finished. Sending all of my love to all of you.
xoxo, whisperedtorments
