I WAS THERE / JENLISA STORIES

Chapter 13

"Ms. Kim wake up" 

"oh yes?, is there something wrong?" I ask in a sleepy voice as I rub my eye 

"nothing Ms. it just Dr. Kwon told me to gave this to you" then she handed me a paper bag then I open it to see what is inside

"Thank you" I politely said

"I may now leave Ms. Kim" Nurse said and then she leave

"what was that Unnie?" Lisa ask as I was looking to the nurse while she was leaving

"oh god, you startled me" I said as I hold my chest "how long are you awake?" I ask as I prepared the meal the oppa gave

"just when the nurse leave" Lisa said as she tried to sit up

"let me help you" then I hurriedly go to her and help her to sit 

"what's inside in that paper bag?" Lisa confusedly ask as she point the paper bag I put on the table

"our lunch meal" I said as I proceed to the table to get Lisa food

"it was that long I slept" Lisa said then I nodded

"come on, you need to eat now and drink your medicine" I said as I feed her

"I can do it in my own unnie" then she tried to get the spoon but I swayed away my hand for her not to reach my hand

"you can't, you felt dizzy right?" I ask then she nodded "then don't be stubborn, let me feed you" I said "open your mouth" I command her 

"but-

"no but, open your mouth, I will eat after I feed you" I said then feed her

'did I really fell in love with you like they was saying to me' I thought as I continue feeding Lisa

"Unnie I don't want to eat already" Lisa said as she move away her head to avoid feeding her

"But you need to finish this so that you can drink your medicine and for you to recover fastly" I said

"I will not recover fastly unnie if you continue treating me like this, I am just sick I'm not dying" Lisa said as she tried to get up

"Lisa you need to rest" I said as I stop her from getting up

"U-Unnie I am tired" then she tried to get up again

"you said you're tired but why are you trying to get up, you're so stubborn Lisa" I firmly said as I hold her shoulder and lay her again

"that's not why I am talking about, you don't know anything unnie" then she turn her back at me. There is a minute of silence between us

'what is really going on you Lisa?' I said in my thought as I stared at her back

 "I am tired, tired of pretending I am okay, tired of saying I am fine" she said out of blue which make me confused then she turn around and face me

"oh shit!" I said in panic "why are you crying?" I worriedly ask as I find my handkerchief but I can't

"U-Unnie" Lisa said which make me stop for finding my handkerchief and look at her

"come on tell me Lisa, why are you crying?" I softly ask as I wipe her tears using my tumb

"I am tired" she cryingly said then I hug her 

"if you are tired then rest, don't surrender" I softly said as I rub her back

"it was hard unnie, everyone saying to me not to surrender but I feel like I was to" Lisa said almost hardly heard

"and you're planning to surrender because you feel it that way, think of it Lisa even if I didn't exactly know what are your challenges now you need to fight, if you're feeling tired then rest don't even surrender, how can you succeed if you will surrender without fighting, we are here to be your guide, to be your crying shoulder, to be your human diary, you can count on me and us Lisa, don't you think you're alone" I said then Lisa hug me tightly