The One Who Has My Heart

CHAPTER 2: What should I do now?

Kyungsoo looked like an interesting kid; he had that mysterious feel around him, something that you read in books and makes the girl fall in love really fast and then something bad happens. He looked a bit shy, more like a loner, but he can't be that bad, right?

I didn't know at first how I should speak with him or if I should just watch him from apart. It's not that I don't know how to make friends, or that I'm afraid to talk with people, it's just that something about Kyungsoo made me feel strange, made me feel somehow reluctant if I should talk to him or not.

The class started and I didn't say a thing again; something must be wrong with me, I'm not like this, this is not me; something is strange with me today. I took another glance at Kyungsoo, he was sitting down in the desk next to me; it belonged to someone but he dropped out of school last year so now it was empty. I got lucky you could say, now I could make conversation easier, we could be friends now. However, his expression wasn't quite good and it couldn't be because he didn't like to be here at school, he looked pale, with dark circles around his eyes, his breaths were also a bit uneven. I was worried; I know we aren't friends but I don't like to see people hurt and if I can help somehow I will, so I wrote a note and gave it to him as sneaky as I could.

'Are you ok? You look kind of pale...' He read the note and then looked at me a bit confused; he turned the little piece of paper around and scribbled something on the back and then gave it back, the same way I passed it on.

'I'm fine.' And that was it; short, a very short answer.

Maybe he's not the type to socialize so fast with new people, maybe I got right the part with being shy and being an introvert, maybe he's like Taemin; that would help a lot because I know how to deal with those types, since I live with one. Therefore, trying to make conversation I ripped another corner of paper from my note and wrote him something again,

'I'm Jongin, but some people call me Kai, you can choose whichever you want though; nice to meet you.' And I passed the note just like the last time, but now with a small smile on my face.

Kyungsoo read the note and frowned a bit but didn't answer back, he just put it aside in a notebook and going back to focus on what the teacher was saying. I'm guessing he didn't want to talk; maybe he's the antisocial type. Either way I will make him somehow talk to me, after all I'm a nice person and I'm nice to keep around, some said I'm funny.

After sometime the bell rang again, signaling that the class ended. It was break and normally half of the class would go outside and half of them would stay in to study for the next class; I was neither one of them, I stood inside because I was too lazy to go out, plus it was cold. Everyone was talking and whispering about the new kid, you could hear how they criticized him for his big eyes or for the fact that he's small, or how he stared at them, but to me he didn't look like he cared. At first he looked here and there, but then he decided to ignore them.

I was again staring at him; I must really be a stalker, I've been with my eyes on him ever since he came today. He was now searching for something in his bag and he probably didn't find what he was looking for because he let out a sigh and closed his eyes as if regretting his decision; maybe it was important.

Then he got up from his seat and was now headed for the back of the class where we kept our coats and scarfs, he passed two rows and when he was in front of the hanger he looked like he lost his balance for a bit, but then he was back to his seat with his phone and his earphones. He put the earphones one by one and then he started listening to music. The music was loud, but the song was quite calm, it was some sort of piano on the background and once in a while you could hear a person singing, or maybe it was him humming, I couldn't tell.