HIGH AND LOW [COMPLETED]

Co-Incidence

Alright so I'm beyond sorry for not posting since so long, the thing is, last time I wrote it got deleted and since then I wasn't able to grab myself up and write again. Today felt like just doing it, so here I'm.
Sorry again people.

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U.N.I.T.E.D.
Felt like for eternity, felt like been there since ages, felt like that's all been the whole purpose of her life. What made her happy, the kiss or the acceptance? Was her fear of being rejected and worthless for all the good men in the world, so wrong? Or is it that this man is just as bad as she is and so he is not bothered.  Whatever it is, only thing that matters is the very moment.
She can't let this moment slip of her memories, her first kiss after all. She never thought that it would happen, that too this way, no cover no lies just the naked accepted truth. He laid hands not only on her body scars but her entire twenty damnned six years.

Do you think a person can just let you in and embrace you even though you yourself not ratify you for him? You kept questioning yourself all these freaking years and he just walks in and surprises you breaKing all the walls of stereotypes you built and take you with him, does this happen for real?
Or
As terrific as it sounds, perhaps he is playing the same game too, just in a professional way, is it?

Before she could conclude the hundred thoughts and questions running in her mind she was taken back into the real world where suddenly she found herself up in the air, scooped in his bulky arms. She parts her lips away from him and looks at him puzzled. He smiles a comforting and assuring one at her and then gently puts her down on the bed and sits beside her.
Her eyes are still hazy while her cheeks are stained with tears. He covers her with the duvet and slightly caresses her hair. She has never been in this situation before. Isnt kiss leads to sex? At least thats what they showed in the movies. And watching him looking longingly at her, he sure as hell isnt going to thrust into her any sooner.

Hold up!
She sound so desperate for him, this isnt Sonakshi Bose she has known or been. She used to be so.......

Her thoughts are put into a halt by him saying

"Umm...Sonakshi
I'm..a...I'm sorry, yeah I'm sorry I crossed a line...Um..I shouldn't have, maybe...and
It's not that I did it out of pity..No no no....Oh god what the fuck...im...I'm just sorry sonakshi, I think you should sleep, i...I better get going"

Mouth has dried already. Face devoid of any expression. Felt like life shattered right in front of her eyes. She is definitely the biggest fool in the world thinking, in fact counting all the possibilities of being in relationship, hah! What a joke!

He stood up from the bed and just escaped.
From the room, from the propinquity he created, from the trust he planted, from the foolish false world she was sent where all her fears and thoughts were proved wrong.

Dev's POV

The hell I was thinking. She, The Sonakshi Fuckin Bose, and I kissed her, oh you want details....I touched her through. She was naked and....vulnerable and.....and broken beyond repair and I managed to kiss her.
Dev Dixit, you just made the meaner user perv of yourself who walks in to a girl's room without knocking and even after seeing her nak....In not appropriate position stays there and then kisses her.
But she was kissing back right?
Oh for fuck's sake, she was crying. You should have....just.....She is the boss goddamit, you are not even up to the mark who can kiss her. And just fuckin stop saying kiss kiss all the time, it was just......Just a normal kiss.
Oh really? Was it....Just a normal kiss?
Didn't you just blend yourself completely in her mouth and took her in like your territory to live? Didn't you held her so full and so tight in your arms that she could never even think of going away from you?
Did you not just got triggered from her tears and thought of marrying her right there?
You bastard little swine.
Alright....Stop
I need to fucking stop thinking all this.
I said sorry to her, she lives in high society, she needed a companion and I was there with my company, kinda steamy one, but that's it...Whatever...I need to STOP THINKING about it. She might have even forgot about it by now.

{Although the really soft instinctive emotion box of my mind says, I'm wrong in judging her}

The night goes by changing sides in bed and thinking about it and then stopping themselves from thinking about it and then thinking about it even more, for both of them.

I tell you, the mind and the assumptions, always shit on relations, emotions, everything.
And even after knowing it, we automatically assume things and act accordingly, because that's the human nature. We think according to our experince, what we have seen, where we have brought up around, and how the situation(on the spot) seems like. We don't always go and ask the questions running in our subconscious mind. We keep them hidden and act according to the last conclusion that our subconscious puts forth hence not giving other person the chance and messing things most of the times.
And it's not our fault.
It takes time to confide in someone and actually let open your real thoughts, in fact, all your thoughts in front of someone else and let them guide you with what is wrong and what is right.

TRUST is always the bigger, creepier word. You want to give in but you can't just give in until you dont get it, and there, my friend, things tangle up.

Besides my intellectual advisory, Dev and sonakshi just skips the next day together.
Dev thought of not going out of embarrassment, he was so sure that he will act weirdly in front of her and that he might just end up mentioning it again and trying to know that if there's any chance of him and her having a chance.
Meanwhile, sonakshi shred enough tears whole night cursing herself for letting in and making a fool of herself and still can't stop thinking about him and trying to get a single thing he did was actually genuine and not out of pity or horniness.
She dreaded the day and the people outside, what if she will start crying spotting him. She has to be strong. But this time, it just seems impossible to stand up again and behave like nothing happened with her, like all the last times.

Tina managed the workers as she figured there was something wrong between the two of them. She even thought of paying a visit to both of them but the work caught her so busy and distracted that she couldn't just got time to visit them.
No one asked anything else except
"Is madam okay? Is Dev bhau okay?"
Suddenly there was this mutual understanding in the whole site that no one tried to relate the co-incidence.

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I thought of making the chapter longer but it just didn't happen.
Anyways, now that I have started again, I'll try to post more sooner.

Precap:- S:- Tina you can tell Mr. Dixit to go back, I don't need him anymore

Hope you all are staying at home and keeping yourself safe. May God keep you and your family always safe and happy.

Singning off
Shruti.