How To Say I Love You [BL]

Chapter 17 part 2

Translated by Tee on foxaholic.blog

Huang Zi Jin smiled fondly at him as he rested his chin on his hand. He was extremely handsome so much so that he could be described as a bewitching demon. The only shortcoming was that he lacked a bit of masculinity.

When he was young, he was popular. But it was because of this face that caused him later to be controlled by a gang that forced him to make that kind of film. If Xue-Jie had not arrived in time, he might have gone insane, died or worse.

But Xue-Jie took such a big risk to deal with the gang simply because by coincidence she saw his sister hiding in the company corridor crying. She didn’t even know who they were at that time.

Over the years, he withdrew from the limelight and moved to behind the scenes instead, and his sister from an unskilled worker was able to mingle and became a gold agent. But they dared not forget the one who saved them from hell and gave them a bright future.

Don’t say that Xue-Jie just let them temporarily take Xiao Jia Shu, that is to say, they wouldn’t mind babysitting Xiao Jia Shu for the rest of their lives.

When Huang Zi Jin fell into reminiscence, Ji Mian face became odd. First, he covered his mouth with a napkin and then hastily drank his glass of wine, then shook his head and broke into laughter. He scolded silently “fool”.

Fang Kun noticed his abnormality and asked, “What’s wrong? Is it a headache?”

“No, I’m fine”, Ji Mian put down his glass and looked back at Lin Yue Yang who was sitting at another table. Lin Yue Yang seemed to be having a good time talking with the people around him and with that Ji Mian felt at ease in leaving him on his own, as he went out.

Xiao Jia Shu ate until he was full and then went to take a leak, after washing up and on his way back, he saw Ji Mian smoking at the end of the hall in front of a window. He walked over, “Ji-Ge, can I have a smoke?”

“You smoke too?” Ji Mian was a bit surprised. Don’t look at Xiao Jia Shu’s tall and handsome figure, he was in fact still a small young and tender boy inside.

“I smoke less nowadays”. He dared not smoke in front of his mother. Once she found out, he wouldn’t be able to smoke anymore. Fortunately, he wasn’t addicted to them and was not exposed after returning home from abroad.

JI Mian smiled and passed him the whole pack and said, “Chinese people don’t often have dinner parties for filling their stomachs, but are instead intended for socializing. Others are mingling, but you are the only one burying your head eating and nobody minds even though it’s difficult to ignore. Even people with strong backgrounds need contacts, especially in the entertainment circle, they need to communicate and develop good relationships, and there’s no harm for you to do this also”.

“I know, thank you Ji-Ge”. Xiao Jia Shu didn’t think that Ji Mian was being nosy. He understands that Ji Mian is a sincere man and of goodwill, otherwise who would care enough to say this? In this circle, class standing decides everything. In order to climb up, people trample upon their peers.

There are too few people like Ji Main who not only don’t trample on others but also care about the younger generations. 

Ji Mian was really as good as Baidu says! Xiao Jia Shu’s affection for Ji Mian rose. Although he once protected against Li Jia Er, everything he did was from his heart and well-intentioned, this was quite hard to come by these days.

Facing him, Xiao Jia Shu suddenly had a desire to pour out his worries and whispered, “Ji-Ge, actually I can’t act at all and I don’t know if I can do Ling Feng’s role justice. That’s why I’m afraid of getting close to the crew. If I were mingling and socializing all day as you suggested with the crew ah! If I let everyone get to know me, don’ you think it would be quite shameful if I had to quit because of my bad acting! It’s better off if I didn’t care in the first place. Quietly come, quietly go, so I can save myself somehow”.

He took a puff from the cigarette and continued, “I have already considered it. I’ll play this role if I can, and if I can’t play it, then I’d slip away early and leave my position for a real actor and compensate for the losses. There’s a saying that says, ‘to be a dog in the manger’[1], and I feel like I’m guilty of being that kind of person. ”.

  [1] Dog in the manger: Someone who denies to others something that he or she cannot use. The literal translation is: “to occupy the latrine and not defecate”.  

Ji Mian looked at him deeply and comforted him saying, “What foolish talk? You can compensate the cast and crew for the money lost, but can you compensate for the time lost? Because of you, the crew changes the roles, all the scenes were restaged, and the schedule was delayed. This is something money can’t make up for. Don’t think about what you can do if you don’t play well, instead think you have to do it yourself and do it well. This is the first step to success. I have seen the role of Ling Feng; the setting is very similar to your own and so it wouldn’t be that difficult for you as you do have the ability, you just need to act in your way”.

“Really?” As expected, Xiao Jia Shu was comforted, and his grey eyes became bright. His mother had told him many times, but he always thought that it was a mother’s preference for her son and so was viewed with rose-coloured glasses. However, now that even Ji Mian has said so, he felt greatly encouraged and certain.