UNFORGIVABLE

CHAPTER THREE

Five Years later, 10 years ago .....

A lot had happened over the last four years. I got over the Jessie-Roman incident eventually. And by getting over, I mean I never forgave Jessie and I never will. I still hate her for cheating on my brother.

Then I tried to stay mad at Roman but, my heart refuses to understand why. He attempted to talk about it with me the next day and almost every other day but, I avoided him like a plague.

He started to hang around the house more often so that he could speak with me whenever Austin is not in the room but, I never gave him the opportunity. Sometimes, I'd give mum an excuse. Sometimes I would lie to her that, I had a very important homework to work on with Olivia. Then I would have Olivia tell her mum to come pick me up, whenever my mum is busy so she wouldn't ask Austin to give me a ride to Olivia's because, I knew for sure that Roman would tag along.

It wasn't until three weeks after the incident that, we finally sat down together to talk. I couldn't keep up with the running around anymore. Besides, mum and Austin where getting suspicious of me no longer wanting to spend time with Roman, which was very unusual of me.

So, when Roman tried again some weeks later, I gave him an audience but, I still pretended like nothing ever happened and asked him to take me out for ice cream.

All I needed was to spend an alone time with my first love and not re-harsh bad memories of him. I had really missed him, to be completely honest with myself. A lot.

He still tried to explain to me during ice cream but, i shunned him, telling him not to ruin ice cream time. In return he tousled my hair and gave me a very relaxed smile for the first time in three weeks.

"I wish you knew how sorry I am, little one." He says.

Once again, being the love-sick sucker I am for him, I smiled and requested for another ice cream to which he obliged to immediately. I couldn't stay mad at him. There was no way. I just couldn't. As days went by, we hung out even more than usual. And each time he smiles at me, my heart automatically melts on instinct. His jokes, our banter, they just melts away every hurt gradually but, I still warned him to avoid any discussion about what had happened between him and Jessie. I guess I'm just petrified to know the truth.

Some days later, I totally forgave him and I was even inclined to forget about everything that had happened and it was almost too easy to do since Jessie stopped coming over to the house. Which by the way, was best for everyone. Next was her truancy, followed by her absence from school and eventually Jessie stopped attending school. No one mentioned her afterwards, not even Austin. Poor Austin. I wonder if he found out but decided not to say anything to me or if he had no clue at all. Maybe his evil ex-girlfriend even broke it off with a text. I wouldn't put it past her.

Whatever the revelation is, it didn't affect his friendship with Roman which still confuses me. Be that as it may, I am just glad she's out of our lives. Austin would be be better off without her.

Austin moved on later on but, never had a serious relationship up until now. It was always more of flings or one night stands or even a week relationship and he always seems to be the one to terminate it. I have a feeling it had everything to do with Jessie's disappearance. Roman's relationships were more of a friends with benefits strategy. However, I never got to meet any of his girls though, 'Thank God' I only got to hear about them every once in a while whenever Roman and Austin were having one of their muffled conversations behind me while I'm watching TV or playing dolls with Olivia during one of their occasional babysitting. They obviously thought I couldn't hear them. I'm just thankful that I don't get to see any of the floozies Roman talks about.