love on ice//b.c&y.ji

how we kissed for the first time: ending

it had been a week after and i anxiously waited, should i open the letter? should i not?

dont do it.

do it.

dont do it, it'll hurt.

just do it, you big baby!

i pounced on the letter and ripped it open.

dear jeongin,

im going to miss you terribly. this is the worst pain ive ever experienced. knowing you're here one minute and gone the next.

you were the brightest part of my life and its taking everything in me to not cry while writing this.

i held the letter tighter.

im going to miss your hair and the way you smelled on my sheets. im going to miss watching you figure skate and seeing how you made the ice your own.

i suppose, i loved you in all the ways i never loved myself and maybe thats why its so hard to let you go.

im going to miss your positivity and the way you light up the room.

i envy the eyes that would get to see you daily.

i guess i should've told you this when i saw you and im sorry i didnt, i love you and i dont think ill ever stop.

if youre ever in town and need a couch to crash on, 12281 e lake leven rd: leven twp, mn 56385

love,
chan

i couldnt breathe. i needed to be around him now.

i grabbed my desktop and typed in jetblue.

i found the soonest flight which was for 12 pm today. it would be a 3 hour and 26 minute flight roughly.

i booked it and began packing a backpack. i packed my laptop, a set of clothes and my chargers.

deciding that was enough, i grabbed my backpack and ordered an uber.

i would see him tonight.

i grabbed a sweater and threw on my shoes. afterwards, i grabbed my backpack and stomped down the stairs.

my uber would be here soon.

i couldnt get over the fact that i would see him.

my heart pounded out of my chest.

its only a week after but would things be different?

i rushed out of the house ignoring my mom's questions as to where i was going.

i ran down the driveway, waiting for the uber to get here.

it was a minute away so i walked further down my driveway.

i saw it pull up and i entered it, overthinking what i was doing.

i messaged felix and texted him

jeongin
dont let chan leave the house today

felix
what for?

jeongin
ill explain later

i had chan's letter in my hand and i clutched it the entire way to the airport.

i was really doing this.

i was actually doing this.

"hey, yeah you can pull up here."

"thank you." i told them.

i exited the uber and walked up his driveway.

before i could regret what i was doing, i knocked on his door.

"did you guys order something?"

i panicked and was ready to walk back when i heard the door open.

"hello?" he said and paused when he saw me.

"jeongin?" he quietly asked.

"yeah?" i told him.

he lifted me up, holding me so tight, i couldnt breathe.

i squealed as he twirled me around in circles.

"can i tell you something?" i asked him.

"anything." he responded.

i wrapped my arms around his neck tighter, "i love you too."

he paused, telling me, "dont joke like that."

i kissed his cheek repeatedly, "i love love love you."

he wrapped his arms around me tighter, "i love you too baby."

i lifted my head and stared down at him, afterwards leaning in and kissing him.

its over!
thats a wrap!!

i hope you guys enjoyed this as much as i had.

as ive mentioned before,
ive been spiralling.

with pieces of this story, i felt more productive, i felt happy, i shared your sadness and fear.

its been the one constant thing in my life and leaving that is scary but im happy and proud of myself for finishing this one.

i cant believe it.

thank you for the three hundred reads and for supporting such a soft fic.

let me know if you want a epilogue.

alright, i love you!
okay and lastly, do good today!