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Chapter Four

Violet's Pov
"Bella this and Bella that, stupid Bella," I mumbled stumbling my way into the dark house. I shut the front door quietly so I had thought so, my purse was jiggling and making a lot of noise. I was high off my mind, and I was even talking to myself to make my purse be quiet. Slipping off my worn-out converse.

I knew Edward wasn't here, he was at Bella's which left me the perfect time to think. I believe he had made up his mind. And he went with his heart even though it was very different from the traditional mate, he shouldn't let others judge him.

I winced when the light to the foyer flicked on and looked towards the stairs looking at Jasper who was watching me confused.

"Violet? Are you okay?" He rushed out concerned coming down the stairs, he made his way towards me cupping my face.

"I lost track of time, it's so fuzzy," I mumbled wincing in pain. "Hey look at me, darling," Jasper commanded his southern twang coming out smoothly he tilted my chin up so he could study my eyes.

"Your eyes are dilated, " He muttered more to himself, he kept a frim grip on my chin.

"How much did you take?" He asked harshly and I inhaled a small sigh knowing I couldn't hide it, but I only wanted him to know. I didn't want everyone else making it a huge ordeal.

They were kind enough to let me stay with them, and to now be a part of their family. "Three lines," I whispered faintly so only he could hear.

"Jesus Violet really? How long come on." He snapped out gripping my wrist instead. He dragged me straight through the dark living room and into the kitchen.

"A few years I think, I don't know it's been a while, I only started because it helped me get over those stupid human emotions," I grumbled holding my head. Pressing my cold hands against my head that felt like it over 100 degrees.

I watched Jasper as he started filling up a bucket at the sink, leaning against it keeping his gold eyes fixed on me.

"I've had a feeling, you always come to class high, I'm surprised Edward can't sense it as your maker." He quietly mumbled.

"I'm sure a part of him can, but Edward can't know Jasper, I promise I'll tell him I'm just here to help him through the whole thing with Bella, and be a good- what are you doing with that," I asked watching him slowly shut the sink off and lifted the bucket up with ease.

"Sober you up." Was all he said. My mind was too slow to process it, and before I could run away he had tossed the freezing cold water over me making me gasp and let just a tiny scream out before he used his speed to rush over and clamp his hand over my mouth.

I whined against his palm but he also was sending emotion waves to me. My body felt 100 times better. "Better?" He asked me still keeping his hand pressed on my mouth.

"Mhm." I slowly nodded my head covering up much faster then I ever imagined.

"I can feel your emotions, Violet, I know you're in love with him, you don't really like Bella, but drugs can easily kill you, yes you may not be human, but it can mess you up greatly." He explained to me giving me soft eyes which I slowly returned.

"You may have not noticed but over the years, you're decreasing you're very slow for a vampire, you always look tired, exhausted. You don't feed like we do, and that's how you dying, you're starving yourself mentally, physically." He sternly.

I slowly felt the light burn of tears that would come if they could. Jasper let his hand fall and I slowly whispered back.

"Y-you are right Jasper... I wanna stop this isn't me but I don't know how." I whispered watching as he kept looking at me.

"We can keep it between us, and I can help you, the first start, you have to give me all your stash, your pills, your needles, your baggies, it all." He continued to name things off and I slowly nodded my head.

"In my purse," I said watching him nod again he slowly patted my shoulder. "You're not alone okay? No more alright, love is a tricky thing especially after so long, but it also changes it grows with you, as you grow as well." He informed me.

I slowly tilted my head taking in all he said "You know Jasper you are really smart." I chuckled when he released a small laugh.

"Thank you I try, now let's clean this mess before Esme sees it."