She's so hurt and upset but no one ever really takes notes no one ever really pays attention to the girl. The way she talks about herself is unbelievable, what she thinks about herself it's just such horrible things.
She believes it's never going to be okay that it's always going to be a bad life with depressing thoughts and suicidal thoughts and attempts. She always goes after pain, it's kinda like she seeks pain.
Maybe because of how she's been treated? Maybe because the way her family does her? Or maybe it's just herself no one will ever know deep down what's wrong with the girl that walks around with a smile and laugh so real.The pain is never noticeable until something happens. Until she decides to try to kill herself. No one ever gave a fuck and to this day they still act like they care but in reality they never gave a fuck about her.
But one person did, she loved that girl with everything in her she even tried over and over to show her what was missing to help her. She'll never truly be able to give her the world, she'll never be able to make things come together. No matter the outcome, no matter what happens, no matter how it hurts, no matter who chooses who. She'll always choose that girl, she'll choose her for many reasons but out of the reasons the only thing she can come up with is care.
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Not technically pointed towards anything I guess it was just something write but I do know it came from the bottom of my heart and I do know this is bout fin