October 29 was the only day (or week) that i actually questioned myself about why i was with you. Not because I don't love you, i do love you. But because we started talking about the trips and all of that, and i realized you, and your father mostly, are people that plan ahead, and honestly, I'm not. The trip was really far away in my head, and you wanted to talk about the details. I completely understand that, it would change your father's whole schedule, and that's why it got me so nervous.
I started thinking about me screwing up everything with your father, your family, with you, exactly because I'm the way i am. Then i started thinking if it was not best if i just ended things the way they were and all of that.
Then i called you, and i calmed down. Simple like that. Hearing your voice and seeing your cute little smile was enough to make make me stop thinking about all of that. I mean, i still think about all of that, but now I'm able to see things in a different way, i can see that you're worth it, and you'll always be worth it, because you are you.
You are worthy of me getting anxious about screwing up with your father. Honestly, that scares me a lot, like a looot, so much that i still have that background thought of just giving it all up because i don't think I'll ever be able to impress your parents kkkkk. Really that scares me a lot .
So yeah.
You are the only one haven't given up, and i never will, because you are too precious for me to do that.
YOU ARE READING
for all the words i left unsaid
No FicciónOnce upon a time there was a boy that lived in my heart, he had said so many "i love you" and i, insecured and with my heart wrapped inside a box with too many keys, was not able to tell him back or show him how my i loved him. This is how i try to...
