Lost on tour ~ lights out tour

Part 30: I'm stuck

I nodded my head and turned to the door. I looked at the door and saw...... Jackson. My heart dropped seeing his eyes watering. "J-Jackson I- how long were you there?" I asked. "Long enough" he said with a voice crack. It hurt so much hearing that voice crack, because it was that voice crack that came before a stream of tears. I saw a tear roll down his cheek before he turned and closed the door. I sat down on the bed. My eyes started to water. "Are you ok?" Payton asked. "N-not r-really" I said as my vision blurred from the tears forming in my tears. "It'll be ok" Payton said giving me a hug. I put on a fake smile but I knew it probably wouldn't be ok. Why did it hurt so much to see Jackson like that? Do I like him? Do I like Payton? This is too much. (Italics are thoughts btw) "y/n, y/n, you there?" Payton asked. "Hmm" I said snapping out of my thoughts. "I said, we have to go to the bus now" Payton said. "Oh, ok go ahead with out me, I'll meet you there" I said with a fake small smile. "Oh ok" Payton said. He kissed my forehead and walked out of the room. He turned and smiled before he left. I got up and packed up the stuff left around the room. I found everything except my charger. I looked all over the room. I opened one of the drawers and saw this:

(Pretend it's a note)
I read it and a smile grew on my face. I turned it around and saw this:

(Pretend that's a Polaroid of Jackson and you)

I felt tears fall down my face. I stood there standing at the picture with tears rolling down my face. I heard the door open and I quickly wiped my tears and put the note and Polaroid in my pocket. It was Anthony. "Hey, you coming?" He asked. I nodded. I grabbed my bag and saw my charger under the bag. I grabbed it and walked out with Anthony. "Did you have a good time in this stop?" Anthony said to break the silence. "Yea" I said quietly. "Is something wrong?" He asked. How did he know. "What, no I'm fine" I said with my head down. Anthony lifted my head and saw my puffy eyes. "What's wrong?" He asked with a sad face. "I- it's nothing" I said picking up my pace to the elevator. "Y/n c'mon tell me what's wrong." He said. "It's a long story" I said. "Ok, don't tell me." He said with a sad face. Great another boy mad at me. We got to the elevator and it was silent. In a quiet voice I said, "are you mad at me?" Anthony looked at me and said "no, I just want to know what's wrong because it kills me seeing you sad." I gave him a hug and felt tears roll down my cheek. I'm such a mess. I need to stop. This is such a terrible day. I let go of Anthony and wiped my face. "Sorry" I said with my head down. "No it-" Anthony started to say but we made it to the lobby and I ran out of the elevator. I got to the bus. I wanted to sit with Bella. I walked onto the bus and I saw her and josh sitting together. Damn it, I can't talk to my best friend. I saw Jackson and saw his puffy eyes. I quickly sat down next to chase before Jackson could make eye contact. "Why are your eyes puffy?" Chase asked. I didn't feel like crying again so I just said "allergies." Chase said "ok" knowing I was lying. He pulled out his airpods and gave one to me. "Here listen to this" he said. I put in the AirPod and we listened to iann dior. (Great artist y'all should check him out) The bus started to leave and I laid back in my seat. I closed my eyes and put my head on Chase's shoulder. I had a very nice dream before I was woken up by chase. He told me we were at the hotel we would stay for the night. I got up and grabbed my bag. I was super tired. There were only 3 people allowed on each room. Chase said "Y/n come in a group with me and ......" I was to tired to hear what he said but I agreed I walked up the room and flopped onto the bed. Chase looked at me and said, "you were talking in your sleep, what was your dream about?" "Weirdo" I said with a laugh. Chase laughed then said "for real what was your dream about." "Ok fine It was about.......

*Authors note*
THIS CHAPTER GOT ME IN MY FEELS 🥺
Also, for the dreams should I post one of my dreams. I probably won't but if y'all say so I will. Imma regret this. 😂. Also I thought the song fit with the title.