It Feels Real [ShortStory]

Chapter 7

Ivy's P.O.V

Nagising ako dahil sa malakas na pagtunog ng cellphone ko. Someone's calling. Sino naman ang matinong taong tatawag ng ganitong oras? Damn!

"Hello." I said in a sleepy voice, not minding the caller's ID.

"Ivy" said a woman's voice from the other line.

"M-mom" Kinakabahang sabi ko

"Where are you?" Asked Lovi, my mom.

"House" I answered.

"We'll be there in 30 minutes" she said, then she ended the call

Damn it! Why? Ba't pa sila uuwi? Para ipamukha sa akin that I'm not good enough? I hate this! I hate them!

Like what my mom said, after 30 minutes, Mom and Dad were already home. And my heaven feels hell right now, really!

"Why did you come home?" I asked.

I'm just curious. Hindi naman sila uuwi ng walang dahilan. Well... why am I asking... Umuuwi nga lang pala sila para bungangaan ako.

"We just receive your report card" Dad said.

Ok... here we go...

"What the hell Ivy? I expected better than this!" William, my dad shouted.

"Better than this? For petes sake, 92 is my lowest!" I shouted.

Lovi slapped me then yelled "If Iva was just here, hindi bababa sa 96 ang grade nya! You're so stupid!"

My eyes started watering. I hate it! I hate being compared to Iva. I'm not her for petes sake.

"Don't compare me to Iva! Ako yung buhay Mom! Ako yung nandito. Pero pakiramdam ko ako yung patay. Pakiramdam ko si Iva lang ang anak nyo. It's always been Iva. Ang hirap! Patay na yung kalaban ko pero sya pa rin ang panalo. I hate this life! Sana ako nalang yung namatay" I shouted while crying.

"Well, you killed her. You deserved to be unloved" Dad said coldly.

"I never killed her! I won't kill her! If I am at fault, it is because I have saved myself and not saved her. Pero kayo, we're only 8 years old that time, but you trusted someone you didn't know to take care of us, para saan? For your ambitions of course. Kung may dapat man sisihin dito, kayo yon" I said then I walked out.

I called my friends and invited them to go to Esquire, but unfortunately they are busy, so I went there alone.

I never answered my parents... Ngayon lang. Nakakapuno na kasi. Nakakainis na! My teachers and classmates always praised me because of my high grades, but my parents—— Nevermind.

Lahat nalang ng ginagawa ko ay hindi sapat. Si Iva lang ang magaling para sakanila. Sya lang ang itinuring nilang anak.

Damn! I hate my life!
If only I could change everything.
I will push Iva out of the house and let myself die from the fire.

Para hindi ko nararamdaman 'to! Pakiramdam ko patay na ako even if I'm still alive. The moment Iva died, it looks like they killed me in the family too.

It hurts Damn! Sobrang sakit. Para akong dinudurog.

"Tequilla please" I said

"Are you sure? You've been drinking a lot of alcohol Miss," the bartender said.

"You don't have to care. I'll pay" I said.

"That's not what I mean Ma'am," said the bartender.

"Oh please stop minding me, It's none of your business" I shouted.

"I wanna say sorry for her behavior" A familiar man said.

"It's okay sir" said the bartender, then he left.

"Leiz" I called his name

"Buti naman at nakikilala mo pa ako" he said.

"Half Fil?" I asked.

"Pure" he answered.

"Ba't parang pinapatay mo ang sarili mo?" Leiz asked.

"Because I wanna die!" sagot ko, habang patuloy pa rin sa pag uunahan ang nga luha ko palabas.

He offered his handkerchief, and I accepted it. I wiped my tears, then smiled at him.

"Thanks" I said.

"Maiwan na kita. Xieldon's here, baka mapatay ako kapag nakitang kasama kita" said Leiz, then he left.

"Tequilla please" I said to the bartender. At first he refused, but when he saw how badly I looked at him, he gave me one.

I was about to get my glass of tequilla but a hand grabbed it.

"Stop drinking too much! Let's go! I'll take you to your house" said Xieldon, then he drank my glass of tequilla.

"I don't wanna go home! There's a monster! Rawrr!" I said.

"Lasing ka na" said Xieldon.

"No, I'm not! I don't wanna go home, please" I pleaded him.

"Okay. I'll take you to my house"