キミノカオリ ー Moonlight, Wisteria Petals, and Thunderclap

Unable to Forgive

-Tanjirou POV-

I feel bad. Like, really bad. I said such horrible words to Zenitsu...and I had just successfully confessed my true feelings for him. He would think I'm such a bad person. I feel horrible. Yet, I couldn't forgive him for saying those horrible, mean words to the one I love.

I really think Zenitsu is a great person, yet it breaks my heart whenever he says bad things about himself. I sometimes wonder if he really thinks he is what he says he is, but in my opinion, Zenitsu is such an awesome guy that you'd want him around you for the rest of your life. Sure, he seems a little crazy when he talks about girls, and he does cry and run off when he faces a scary situation, but he never backs off when it really matters. My sister Nezuko and I were saved by his courage countless times already.

So, it really shattered my heart when he badmouthed himself for an uncontrollable situation, like losing his legs. Was it his fault? No! But why does he blame himself? Why does he say...he hates himself?

I do not understand. I thought as I squeezed my jasmine-colored futon blanket. (I'd carried it out from our original sleeping room, since I was genuinely angry at Zenitsu and didn't want to sleep with him that night.) I had hurt him, undoubtedly. I sensed the air vibrating a little when I let out a sigh, which dispersed into the thin air and moonlight-flooded atmosphere. God, help me. What should I do now?