Foster Kidz book 2: All Grown Up (Completed)

Chapter 5: All things go.

"I feel one minute, yea we got it, then it's gone. While we keep waiting for a moment to live for."

Asia's POV

They say all tragedy ends with death. But I didn't believe in Shakespearean mythology, until now.

The doctor walks up to me hesitant and obviously upset. I stand up, facing him with worry in my eyes, and he shakes his head at me. A heavy weight snatches at a hole where my heart used to be, and for a moment,  I swear this building was collapsing with me in it. Everything is in slow motion, and I feel myself losing it. Keep it together Asia. Please. Don't freak out here.

"I'm sorry.. There's nothing we could do.. " He states and I fall back onto the chairs holding my head. He walks away and I sit here, empty inside.

She's been dead for three hours now, and I don't know how to break the news to anyone, not even myself. I don't want to leave the hospital,what if she comes back? She'll come back right? I don't want to believe that she didn't make it. She had to have made it. She's strong,  she wouldn't just die on me. I stand and leave the hospital, in contrast to my feelings. I walk home instead of driving,  and go up to my room. I take a seat on my bed, it still feels like her body lies there. It still smells like her peachy perfume, laced with her clothes everywhere. Why did she have to leave me? Why couldn't we pick another spot? Why couldn't I save her?

My world crumbles around me as I lay back,  and I lose myself to the thoughts in my head. I wanted to show her so much better, and I got her killed. I sigh and put my head in my lap. Tears fall heavily as a huge wave of guilt and pain engulfs me.  It hurts to move, to think,  to feel, to breathe. Maybe I shouldn't anymore. I get up and run hot bath water. I undress myself as the steam lifts up into the air. I sit in the bath,  it stings my sensitive skin and I lay back in it. Reaching over to the cabinet, I grab the blade I use for my eyebrows and hold it against my wrist. My hand shakes as it tears through my flesh. I scream in pain and drop the blade. I don't want to be in a world without the one person who made everything worth trying for.

I feel my mind blurring from the blood loss and I allow myself to drift off. Who cares anyways? I pass out not long after, and I hear her voice in my head. Calling me, telling me everything will be okay. I just want to tell her I love her one last time,  hold her once more, show her the world. I failed her so much, and I'm sorry.

"I'm so sorry Jahturi..." I whisper to myself,  waking up from the unconsciousness I had slipped into.

My mind is foggy and I glance at the pink water. Blood trickles onto the white tiled floor. I hadn't realized how much I'd lost until now, as I stare at the pool of blood beneath the bath tub. Sitting up out of the tub, the water drains and I step out wrapping a towel around my wrist. My phone vibrates from the far side of my room and I rush over to it.

Caller uknown.....

"Hello?" I answer.

What I hear on the other ending of the phone sends chills down my spine. I had to be going crazy,  imagining shit, no,  hallucinating. I have to be losing my shit. This isn't real Asia, get your shit together.