Sad Poems And Monologues

(monologue 1) Regrets

Another day come and gone and well it wasn't quite worth the time to took for the sun to rise. I understand regrets I really do its something I live with a lot. I feel regret every time I do, say, or feel something. If I like someone I have regrets. If i date I have regrets. If i break up or get dumped I have regrets. I feel regret for decisions I haven't made yet. I feel regret for eating, then for not eating. I feel regrets for standing up for myself and at the same time I feel regret for letting people walk all over me. My life is a giant regretful story. I regret being alive when better and younger have died and at the same time I regret wasting the life I have by having regrets. I don't know why I feel this way. The chemicals in my brain have always been a bit jumbled. My emotions, memories, and thoughts are like the game Scrabble with some letters missing and extra ones thrown in. Regret isn't the only thing I feel sadly I feel things like joy, excitement, love. You must be wondering why is this bad. Well if you live your whole life deaf you never know your missing the beauty of music. I live with these emotion I know what love feels like so when the pain and sadness and sorrow comes it crashes down like a wave. I slowly drown in the hurricane of tragic thought and what if. The only difference between being in a hurricane and being in my life is no water us there to help my tears blend, no water to silence my sobs, no beauty of sunlight and water just the ugly truth that I'm sad. I don't try to be sad it just happens but a moment of glee then a giant black snake wraps it's was around my thoughts and the pressure causes the tears to turn my cheeks into rivers.