drenched in sadness┊𝑗𝑜𝑛𝑔𝘩𝑦𝑢𝑛

하나┊one

tears roll down my cheeks as i continuously scroll through the various pictures i saved on my mobile phone. memories of a time with you. all i have left now is this atrocious depression, which i never imagined to come across even once in my entire lifetime. has it been two years already? not for a day could i stop thinking about you. about the depth of my desperate longing for you. i should have seen it coming, right? i should have been there for you. i should have listened more. tell me, what can i do to spend just one more day with you?

i should be okay now. everyone close to you seems to have healed for the most part. but what about me? jonghyun, tell me what to do. please give me strength to continue this hurtful path. i keep repeating the same words of comfort to myself. you're walking beside me at all times. but how can i keep trying to portrait the existence of hope when i, myself, do not possess the ability to feel such thing?

i miss you. i will always miss you. every second i spend in this world. every breath i take. every tear i cry.

and so i spend the entire night for yet other time outside. sitting on a park bench, in the light of the moon. and for yet another time i say to myself 'and you're with me after all'.