drenched in sadness┊𝑗𝑜𝑛𝑔𝘩𝑦𝑢𝑛

둘┊two

why?

why did it have to be you?

after all, everything you caused to happen only ever took place with good intentions. you had never been pefect. but then again..no one ever said you were. still...life had a different plan for you. so what was the plan? what was it? it feels like we've all been fooled. all this time you tried your best. your precious soul - broken by life.

tell me, why? i deeply wish i could turn back time. however this wish could never be granted.

i still miss you. of course. why wouldn't i? i'm unsure if there will be a day that i finally can fully cope with your passing.

no matter what i tell myself, the truth and the hurting reality is that you're not here anymore. you passed away. there was a moment you filled your lungs with air for one last time. there was a moment you closed your eyes for the last time. you're dead. you're just not existing anymore.

i long for you and it hurts more than anything ever has before.

life feels like a waste without you. hah. isn't it funny? how i talk about you tragically but simultaneously i feel the same way. i can understand you. of course i can.

i've thought about it a couple of times before, these past two years. would it even matter if i wasn't there in this world anymore, physically? tell me, would it matter if i left? perhaps i should do it. but..no.. i'll wait. i'll desperately keep waiting for your return.

maybe one day