Falling For It ✔️

Fourteen

Seated on the opposite side of the arcade part of the restaurant, we ordered waters and an appetizer. Neither of us were really hungry, but we agreed it was a good idea to sit and talk for a while before we jump into the games. 

"Can I ask you something?" 

"Of course." 

"Why did you dislike me so much for so long?" 

His eyes were kind of sad, and I felt my heart drop a little into my stomach. Now I feel even worse. But once again, I needed to be honest. "The first two years I had met all you guys you weren't really around much. So, the few times I did see you we never really interacted. When you started coming around more, you always had a girl with you. Always a different one. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't jealous, it was more like I didn't have respect. It's one thing to sleep around, I don't look down on those for that. I've done it myself, but it looked like you were messing with the girls you were with. They always looked at you with puppy dog, love struck eyes. It put a sour taste in my mouth and that taste stuck with me up until recently. I shouldn't have judged you like that, and I'm sorry. Obviously, I was wrong." 

I took a bite of some of the food, looking own and waiting for him to respond. He took a drink of his water before letting out a slow breath. "You were not wrong." he said, making me look up. "I used to be like that. I did have a different girl in my bed frequently, and I did play games. I convinced myself it was just me being polite and kind, but it was still misleading. You were not wrong." 

"Oh." I replied staring at him. I really didn't know what to say. I also didn't really know what he was trying to tell me. I started to get the feeling that maybe I was giving him too much credit. Is he still that kind of player? 

"It wasn't until about 3 years ago that I started to realize that behavior was unacceptable." He continued.

I felt a wash of relief from that, and I focused on the conversation. "What enlightened you?" 

"You did." he said in a serious tone. 

Was not expecting that. "Me?" 

He nodded. "Do you remember when Namjoon and Taehyung had that huge fight? The one where they almost split up?" 

"Oh...yeah." I started getting chills just thinking about it. That was a rough weekend. 

"You came over to my house since that's where Namjoon was hiding out, and you said something to him that really stuck with me. I remember you were on the couch and he was laying his head in your lap and you were running your hands through his hair and wiping his tears away. He thought that he lost Tae forever and you told him; 'we chose who we want to be and who we want to fight for. You can either fight for yourself, or you can fight for Taehyung. No one will judge you if you chose yourself, but if you chose Taehyung, you must admit when you're in the wrong.' You then continued to talk to him about how he can change if he wants to. Growth and maturity are big parts of relationships, and we can only change if we want to for ourselves. I remember thinking you were right. We have the ability to change we just have to want it enough, and want it for ourselves and no one else. I wanted to change, and your words gave me the push I needed to pull the trigger." 

His eyes were staring down at the table as he recalled the memory. When he stopped talking, he looked back up to me as I was trying to keep myself calm. I don't remember what I said verbatim, but he did. I remember the conversation, and I remember that after that conversation Namjoon went back to their house and begged Taehyung to forgive him for his reaction to what happened. It was hard for them, very hard, and the love they had for each other was strong enough for them to fight for one another and work through their issues. But it really surprised me that Yoongi remembered my exact words. I don't even remember him being there.