Between Boys (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 22: Broken

Niall POV

...In London...

"You okay, Niall?" I hear Harry from behind me. I look at him as he sits down beside me.

No, I'm not okay... I feel stranded, alone in an empty darkness. I've literally been pulled away from the love of my life, the one person whom I want to be with. 

"I'm fine." I answer avoiding too much conversation.

Harry hands me a cup of Louis' Yorkshire tea, "Here." he says. He can tell I'm not doing well. Harry's the kind of guy who loves comforting people and making them feel better. He's a genuinely amazing lad. 

"Isn't Lou going to kill you for making me this?" I laugh, taking the hot drink from my friend. Louis never liked sharing his tea with anyone... He gets quite vicious as a matter of fact.

"I didn't make it... I took it from Louis without him noticing." he laughs.

"Don't think I can't hear you, boys." shouts Louis from his room. Harry and I try not to laugh though failing miserably.

"Weren't you asleep?" Harry calls to Louis.

"Only until I heard the word tea." he answers with a smirk. 

"And what a lovely tea it is, Louis, thank you!" I say on a teasing tone. No matter how down I am, I know I can count on these boys to make me feel better.

"I'm sorry you had to leave Danielle..." Harry says to me as I stare into my tea. "She really loved you, and if it's meant to be you'll see each other again for sure." 

I feel a wave of depression hit me the moment Harry said Danielle. I know he's trying to comfort me and it's really appreciated, but I can't come to accept that she's gone. The depression suddenly grows into a feeling of anger and frustration inside of me. I feel like it's all my fault that I'm here in London without Danielle. 

I place my tea on the table beside me, close my eyes tightly and place my face in my hands. I then look to the ceiling and open my eyes, everything is blurry from the tears I'm trying to hold back. I look to the floor, run my fingers through my hair with frustration. The anger builds. I feel like I'm going to breakdown.

I could've said no.

I could have risked everything and stayed with Dan. 

I could still be with her right now.

Mixed emotions fluster inside of me, I stand abruptly from the sofa and run my fingers through my hair once more.

"Why did I leave her." I mumble. I find myself standing bent over, agitated, crying. I pace back and fourth the room as if I were stressed... I can feel my heart beating faster... I feel like exploding.

I let Danielle go.

It's MY fault I'm no longer holding her.

I feel as if I'll never see her again.

"Niall?..." says Harry from the couch, he looks concerned. I don't even care.

"I left her Harry." I look at him, tears flowing from the corners of my eyelids. "I let her go!" I throw a pillow across the room with all my might.

"I could have stayed!" I scream and punch a hole into the pastel coloured wall. I take a few steps back, all sweaty, my hand throbbing from the impact. I all feel is a heavy regret and frustration.

After everything we had... After she chose me over Liam...

I left.

I can't describe my grief. The empty inside of me... I've never felt so hopeless... So alone. Danielle will never truly know how much I love her, I can no longer make her feel as special as she should be, treat her the way she should be treated.

"Niall..." Harry stands and puts his hand on my shoulder from behind me. 

"Don't touch me!" I explode with rage as I turn around. I see Louis watching from the corner of my eye. I ignore him and focus on Harry.

The look on his face... I've never seen that look before. 

A sudden wave of fatigue and sadness hits me. 

"I love her." I say as I collapse onto my knees. "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to -" 

"It's okay." He helps me back onto the couch, "Don't worry, Niall."

I didn't mean to get angry at him... I lost control.

I suddenly burst into tears of sorrow, my head resting on Harry's lap. 

"When I was with her... That last moment..." I start. "I slipped a letter into Danielle's hand..." 

I sit back up and wipe my face and look up at my curly haired friend.

"I love her so much, Haz." 

Eleanor POV

Danielle hasn't been out for two days. Even though she refuses to talk to me, I haven't left her side. I even tried to get Cody to talk to her, she still didn't say a word. 

Cody, no matter what happened, is still in love with Danielle. He tells me how sweet she is and how her angelic face lights up when she smiles. She makes him so happy and it crushes him to know that out of three boys, he was the only one she had no romantic feelings for. I can tell now that Niall's gone, he's going to try and sweep her off her feet, but I know Danielle... Her feelings for Niall will never die down. I feel so bad for Cody, he's such a sweetheart.

"Dani, I know how you feel." I say, trying to be sympathetic. "I'm going through the same thing with Louis..."

I understand partially what Danielle's going through, I mean after all, my boyfriend left me too... We had talked about it when Danielle was out with Liam. Louis told me that we'd still be together no matter how far apart. That I need to ignore whatever media says, the rumors, the photos, nothing is real besides our love. Hearing him say that reassured me, I know I'll see him again. 

I have to admit though, Niall and Danielle are so incredibly perfect for eachother. I've never seen two people so in love... Louis and I can't even compare. 

I look down at Danielle's closed hand and I notice she's holding a folded piece of paper. 

"What's in your hand?" I ask, almost sure she won't answer me.

"He wrote me a letter." she manages to say under her breath.

"A letter?"

"He put it in my hand when he left..." she sighs.

A small smile appears on her sad face as she looks down at the paper in her hand. "It smells like him." she chuckles softly. 

I want to know what's on that letter so badly... If Danielle is smiling after Niall left for London, he  must have written something incredible.

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I'm gonna be brutally honest with you guys and say I hate this chapter so much and ugghh I'm upset cause I have to leave you on this for a while... Exam week in school D:

Please stay tunedddddddddd don't leave me now cause of this boring/horrible/blah chappy <3 

Love you all:')

- Oli xx