When did I fail?
Where did I go wrong?
Did I not include enough references?
Did the playlist seem like too much?
If it wasn't me,
If you never loved me in the first place,
Then you didn't have to lead me on!
All those sweet, almost flirty, comments...
The time you clasped my hand and rested your head on my shoulder...
I wish I could do it again.
Not as the person that I became for you,
But as me.
As who I started as.
Now that you have made your distaste for romance,
Particularly with me,
Clear,
I want to be that girl...
The one from 2017...
The one with...
I can't even really remember...
All I can describe it he feeling.
Being her, I always knew that I was authentic.
I never felt fake or made up.
I wanna be authentic again.
I wanna be brand new and shiny.
I want to sing off key
I want to not pretend anymore
I miss it all...
Before when I was authentic,
I didn't have to compromise myself
I didn't have to lie,
Because it was me
Always me
