Never Again

Just Like That

SIMULA

I'm on my way home, galing ako sa isang restaurant kasama si Trent for a meeting. He's my boyfriend for three years pero sinira ng tarantado dahil nangaliwa. The purpose of our meeting is to give ourselves a closure since we broke up suddenly, but our meeting did not end well.

EARLIER...

I'm ten minutes early and it's not that I'm excited, duh, pumunta lang naman ako ng maaga para isipin niyang pinaghintay niya ako at dapat siyang mahiya.

I'm in a private room. This is where we are going to, obviously, meet and talk. And, what's funny is, this room is room for the lovers and we were once lovers, how ironic.

We broke up three days ago since like what I said nangaliwa siya. I caught him at the bar that we're supposed to meet that night, kissing a bitch and slipping his right hand inside the skirt while his left hand is in the hip of the whore. Kakapal ng mga mukha at doon pa talaga sa bar, why not in the hotel or in his condo? God, why am I suggesting?! Bwisit.

Shit. I need to give that boy a vibe that he will forever regret for hurting a woman like me. Imma show that boy who's his biggest karma. And that's me. Behati Amira.

I was keeping myself busy on the menu. Pero di naman ako kakain since galing akong birthday ng kaibigan ko. While staring at this boring menu, I saw a fuckboy walking straight in front of me, but I didn't stare at him instead I kept my eyes on this boring menu. Nararamdaman kung kinakabahan ako pero di ko pinakita. I need to look brave, I need to show how strong I am, because that's how I am.

"Did I keep you waiting?" He asked while walking towards me. Is he an idiot? He came at the right time. Di ba uso tingnan ang relo niya? 

He was about to kiss my forehead nung nasa harap ko na siya pero iniwasan ko patagilid ang noo ko. Timawang 'to.

Napabuntong hininga siya at walang ginawa kundi umupo nalang. Bago niyang sinenyasan ang Waiter, binalingan ko siya at tsaka ako nag salita.

"You know the issue right?"

His father betrayed my father. Trent's father, Mr. Bangsil robbed our resort by paying his people to do it. And he also got into drug dealing, that's why Mr. Bangsil is in prison right now.

"Of course, you know that. Let's get this straight, I'm here to give us closure because I'm kind and we br─"

"No. We're not going to break up." Mariin niyang sinabi.

"Because we're already done." I calm myself before continuing what to say. Tumataas altapresyon ko sa kaniya ha.

"Look. I'm trying to be a good sport here. Can you just be thankful that I'm giving ourselves a closure?" Mahinahon kung sinabi.

Umilling siya. "Please, I beg you, Behati. Don't do this. Give me a chance, I'll be better." Pagmamakaawa niya.

I rolled my eyes and calmed my shit.

"As I was saying, I'm giving us closure, not to give you a chance. Know the difference." Nagtitimpi kong sinabi. Bogo na animal.

"I didn't mean to do that, you see I regret doing that." Malungkot niyang sinabi.

"You should." Madiin kong sinabi.

"And, aren't you happy? We're done and that's just mean you can do the hell you want, you can bring lots of girls in the club with you or in the hotel or maybe... in your condo, besides that's how cheap you are." Mapakla akong ngumiti.

"What? I'm not like that, what are you saying..." Kaawa-awa niyang sinabi.

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. Bumuntong hininga siya.