11/4/2019
Life isn't fair..... we all know that by now; some more than others.
The numbness, it's back.
Creeping in at its finest moments, it never seems to disappear. Hiding in the shadows till it unexpectedly jumps out at you leaving you filled with terror and sadness.
Indeed.... it's back.
The monster itself, a close second to death. It's right hand man; holding the scythe that will eventually kill us all, if you must.
The shivers. The pounding of my brain. The thumping of my heart. The shaking of my body. The nausea that overwhelms my chest.
Yes I know I just described feelings that contradict the definition of numbness.
"I'm okay."
"I'm fine."
"I'm numb."
Words mean nothing. They are all but lies that we tell ourselves to comfort our minds in their darkest states. We believe if we say them enough, maybe they will be true.
Life's not a fairytale kids. Wishes don't always come true. Instead, we are often left dealing with our worst nightmares.
