Dear Diary,

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Dear Diary, I can't believe my parents snooped through my private notebook! At least it was my old one and not this one though, but still that's so unacceptable. I was so upset last week because of it. I hate living here. I wish I was dead to be honest. I know that's a huge thing to say but it's true. I can't keep living like this. 2:46pm.

My mood has been going downhill a lot more since I found out about my parents snooping about in my private book. It makes me feel pathetic and weak. They critiqued me a lot on my feelings written in that notebook. Do you even know how that feels? Fucking horrible, makes you feel so worthless.

It frustrates me how they always say that they're doing their best and they give me everything I need or whatever and how I always throw it all back in their faces. That's such bullshit. I hate my parents.

It's Friday today, which means a whole weekend at home. I never have anything to do. I feel so awkward walking around my house because of my parents. I fear they might tell me off for something. I can't really go out anywhere either because I don't really talk to my friends outside of school.

Maybe I should but I don't know, I feel annoying though. "Natalia are you listening?" Ms. Carpenter- my English teacher - asks gently, I look up and nod, "yeah, sorry I'm just tired." I reply. I hope this lesson drags if I'm honest with you.

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Update, it didn't drag. Which means now I am sadly on my way home. "I'm home.." I call out as I step inside. No answer of course, I sigh and walk through to the kitchen where I see Lydia. "I'm home,"

"Alright you don't need to repeat yourself!" She snaps, someone's in a bad mood. I quickly utter an apology then go to my room. I hate feeling like I've always done something wrong.

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My life feels like one of those carousel rides you'd find at a fair or something. But one that never stops, like everyday I do the same thing. I wake up, go to school, come home, get yelled at for something random, go to my room, sleep and repeat.

I just wish something good would happen, like I don't know...meet someone who understands me. But I really doubt that'll happen any time soon.

2 weeks later

My parents are going to Spain for two whole weeks, meaning I will finally be able to relax. They leave tomorrow. Suddenly my phone pings, it's a text from my friend Ally. 'Hey, u wanna come to some house party with me?'

'When?' I stare at my reply for a little while after I send it. I hate parties, they're full of sex-driven teenagers who think too much of themselves. 'Tomorrow night at 9.' I lock my phone without replying, worries immediately popping into my head, what if my parents find out?

I'd probably have to sneak out later than 9 so that my brothers won't find out. My mind is racing with doubts and what ifs. Screw it, I'm gonna take a risk for once. I grab my phone and text Ally back, 'OK.'

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"Alright, you've spent time on your own before, so you all know the drill. Any problems just call Aunty Maria or any of your grandparents, OK?" Lydia and my dad are leaving today. And at the moment my brothers and I have to listen to Lydia go on about meals and school and boring stuff for twenty minutes.

Dad's just packing the last bits of their luggage into the car, and my two younger brothers Alex and Mason, they have to stay at my Aunts house. "Have a good two weeks." I remark. Lydia glances at me and mutters a thank you then bustles out of the house. Wow nice.

'What time can you meet me at mine?' a message from Ally causes me to jump, jeez. 'idk, around 10?' any earlier and my oldest brother, Lance, would probably see me sneak out and snitch. I hate him.

Later that night

My heart is beating at an erratic pace right now. I've never snuck out before, mainly because my parents are always home and if they found out they'd probably take my phone away forever and ground me until I'm 35.

I glance around my room briskly, checking to see if I've forgotten anything, Nope. OK good, now I have to get down the stairs without making them creak and then open and lock the front door without any noise whatsoever.

I make it to the fifth stair down when I hear my second oldest brothers door open. My head turns slowly, and we both stare at each other for a short while. "What are you doing Natalia?" I open my mouth to speak but funnily enough no words come out.

Finally I manage to say something, "oh Kaleb..uh, I- well my friend wanted me to go to a party with her.."Kaleb nods his head in a slow manner. "OK." he states, my brows furrow in confusion. "What?"

He shrugs, "I'm not a dick like Lance, you can go. I doubt he'll come and check on you. But turn off your phones location just in case." without giving me a chance to reply he passes me on the stairs and go off to the kitchen.

What the fuck just happened? I stand still for a moment and then rush down the stairs and leave the house. I arrive at Ally's house shortly after and send her text to let her know I'm outside.

Seconds later, she's outside with me. "Was it easy sneaking out?" she babbles frantically. "Surprisingly yes, Kaleb just said to go and he won't snitch." I tell her, Ally claps her hands, jeez she's way too excited.

We eventually get to the party, Ally forgot to tell me it was halfway across the town! "Um, there's a lot of people here Ally." my eyes flick around all the people flitting in and out of the house, - which is huge by the way - "Yeah, it's because this is a party dumbass." I roll my eyes and follow her into the house. This is gonna be a long night.

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