Dear Diary,

10

Dear Diary, there is one more secret Antonio is hiding. It's gonna be difficult since he friend-zoned me but I'll find a way. He told me last week about him being in the Mafia and I still can't properly believe it, I mean... how can you just believe something so bizarre!? Ally hasn't been speaking to me much since I wouldn't speak to anyone last week at school, whenever I've texted her she always leaves me on seen or gives super blunt replies. I've asked Finn about it but he said she'll come around eventually, and I know he's right... she always does. 1:35am

I reach my arm up and press once on the doorbell, the shrill ring of it sounding throughout the house. I'm at Ally's house. I need to speak with her and settle everything because I feel bad that I've basically ignored her for almost two weeks. Shortly after, her mom Sara opens the door.

"Oh Natalia, what are you doing here?" she asks, a sweet smile plastered onto her face. I frown a little, why does her smile seem so... fake? "Um, I just came to see Ally... I feel horrible about barely talking to her. I want to apologise."

A somewhat surprised look presents itself onto her face. "She's in her bedroom, not too sure what kind of mood she is in today." I nod and pass her to head up the staircase. I quietly make my way to Ally's room, but stand outside of her door for at least 5 minutes. I raise my hand up to knock but the door swings open, revealing a flustered Ally.

"Oh."

I frown, "hello to you too." she pulls the door towards her, so I could only see her head. She is hiding something. "I can't talk right now Nat, I have tonnes of homework to do."

"Why were you on your way out then?" I ask, she had on her shoes and a jacket as if she was about to go out. She shakes her head, "Uh, no I was just going to ask my mom something, I just got home like twenty minutes ago and have just been sitting on my bed." Hmm... what is she hiding?

I quickly make a move and force the door open, she tries to stop me but she isn't quick enough. The sight before me is dreadful. A half naked Antonio is lazily laid in my best friend's bed. He looks up at me, his face falls instantly. "Oh, um Natalia."

Everything feels like it's in slow motion. Ally is sobbing hysterically, standing in her doorway whilst Antonio is fumbling about trying to yank his shirt over his head and apologising profusely to me. I finally gather myself and everything returns to normal speed, "Brilliant."

I blink, clearing my vision from the tears gathering in my eyes. Sara has obviously heard the commotion because she is stood at the top of the stairs, eyes wide and an annoyed look on her face. "What the hell is going on!?" she demands.

"Your daughter is no longer my best friend." I state bluntly. I rush past everyone and get out of the house, once I'm out I start running.

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I don't know how long I've been sitting here. I know it's been a while because the sky is becoming dark and the air is cool on my skin.

I decided to come back to the old church that Antonio brought me too when we first met after the party. I remembered that he left the two deckchairs in a little hidey-hole so I'm pretty comfortable right now.

I haven't been thinking much, about what I walked in on. Instead I've been calmly watching the sun disappear below the horizon. But one thing I have thought about is, how the hell am I supposed to figure out Antonio's secret now?

I've started to doze off slightly when I hear some rustling in the grass down below. I jump awake and creep over to the edge of the roof, peering over the edge. I can't see anything or anyone... maybe I'm just hearing things or maybe it was a cat or something.

"Natalia," a deep voice comes from behind me, I let out a short scream but the person places a hand over my mouth and pulls me away from the edge. My arms flail about, trying my best to hurt my attacker.

Natalia, stop! It's just me." My brows furrow and I rip myself away from the person. I whip around to see Antonio. Fricking Antonio! Is he serious right now? "What the fuck are you doing here?" I hiss, glaring at him.

He sighs and glances down at his feet, "I'm sorry." I scoff and cross my arms, I am no longer calm. I'm fuming! "Are you really!? Is this why you friend-zoned me? So you could go and bang my best friend without feeling guilty?"

His face contorts into one full of anger. "Oh shut up Natalia, do you really think I'd stoop to that level?"

I release a short, mocking laugh and leer at him. Is he really this thick? "Uh yes I do think that Antonio! You wanna know why? Because I saw you half freaking naked in my best friend's bed!" I pause for a few moments to let myself breath, before I can help it, I feel all of the stress and sadness hit me like a huge wave of emotion.

Tears begin to gush down my face and I lower myself onto the ground. "Nat, I really am sorry... I never intended to do anything with her, I just wanted to ask her how you've been." This makes me sob harder. That has got to be one of the biggest excuses ever. "Y-you hurt me..." I stammer, attempting to wipe away my tears.

Antonio nods and settles himself next to me, "I know Natalia, I truly am sorry I never meant to hurt you. I have no excuses to give you, I know I did wrong but please forgive me." More tears well up in my eyes, I shake my head. "I don't think I'm that upset about you and Ally, I am mad at her but for you... you just want to be friends so why does this bother you?"

"Nat, this isn't fair.."

"How is it not fair? You're unbelievable, leave me alone." I snap, anger begins to bubble up inside of me.

Antonio starts to insist on staying so instead I get up and leave. I should probably get home anyway since it is getting late.

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"Where have you been?" Lydia asks as soon as I step foot in the house. It's 8:58pm and I'm normally supposed to come home around 7 or just before it gets dark. I'm really not in the mood to deal with her tonight. "I had to spend some time alone." I mutter, staring at the patch of wall behind her head that had been scratched off by one of my younger brothers.

"You have a bedroom!" I roll my eyes at her. This angers her more, "which you are going to spend the rest of the night in now." She tells me, raising her voice.

I murmur a 'whatever' before kicking off my shoes and heading upstairs to my bedroom. To be honest, I have some balls if I'm talking to my step mom like that, normally I'd be trembling in my shoes. But I really don't care tonight, I just want to be alone and not talk to anybody...it's not like I have any friends to talk to any more.

I've been laying on my bed staring at the ceiling for ages, I don't know how long. No one has messaged me to see if I'm okay. But that's expected, Ally has a way of twisting things to make whoever she's mad at the bad person. So I probably don't have any friends any more.

Suddenly, my bedroom door bursts open and Lydia is standing in my doorway, an angry expression on her face. I furrow my brows and look at her. "What?" Her brows raise and I know I probably shouldn't have said that.

"Don't you dare talk to me like you did earlier then you can get out of my house and find somewhere else to live."

Is this bitch serious... I hold back a laugh as best as I can. "I didn't talk to you like anything." I replied. Lydia scoffs and crosses her arms.

"See! You're giving me back chat right now." I begin to feel frustrated because I literally did not talk to her in a rude way at all. I let out a long sigh and shrug my shoulders, I think it's best if I don't say anything else because otherwise she'll keep bullshitting.

"Don't ignore me now! I'm so sick of you being such a brat, tomorrow you'll be doing everyone's chores." I close my eyes briefly.

"OK, I'm gonna go to sleep goodnight," I wait for Lydia to leave before changing into some pyjamas and switching my light off so I can sleep.

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Hey guys, I didn't really know how to end this chapter and I also finished I late last night so I was a little tired. I hope you liked it. Anyway let me know what you think about this in the comments. Don't forget to VOTE.